So, Britney did this and some of the questions made me laugh... I also had some stuff I wanted to write about so I don't expect anyone to really read this, I am just writing for me... It's something I haven't done in a while.
1. Do you still talk to the person who hurt you the most?
No.
2. When was the last time you saw the last person you kissed?
Tonight.
3. Do you lecture people about drugs?
Sometimes...
5. Have you ever kissed anyone named Tom?
No.
6. Are you in school?
Kinda.
8. Have you ever been in a relationship you weren't 100 percent sure of?
Yes.
9. Name something funny that happened this week?
Kurtis takes my phone and tells my mom that he just did two shots of syrup for $2 and it was "totally worth it!"
10. Has anyone ever told you that they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
Yes, they lied.
11. If you could pick the temperature of the outdoors for the rest of your life, would you?
No, although I'd prefer it to be warm over snow and junk. :(
12. Are you moody?
Sometimes... I don't think any girl isn't...
13. How many times a day do you pee?
No idea?
15. What's bothering you right now?
Feeling like a round peg in a square hole...
16. Do you delete people off of facebook?
Sometimes.
18. Do you believe that you can change for someone?
I don't think people change, I think other people's perceptions change...
23. Do you get along with girls?
Sometimes.
25. Do you crack your knuckles?
Yes.
26. Do you put yourself before others?
Not as often as I should.
27. Do you like surprises?
Sometimes, it depends on what the surprise is about and what it involves.
28. Is making out fun?
lol, yes.
29. Do you have a teddy bear?
Yes. More than one. :)
31. What'd you do last night?
Spent time with friends.
32. Who was your last call from?
My mom.
33. What show did you last watch?
Nanny 911
34. Do you wear Hollister?
No.
35. Who's the last person you had a deep meaningful conversation with?
Amber.
36. What's on your mind right now ?
Stuff.
37. Would you rather be with your boyfriend/girlfriend right now?
Yes.
38. Do you have family problems?
Yes.
39. Where are most people in your top friends from?
I think that application causes more problems than it is worth.
40. Does anyone like you?
Maybe?
Also stolen from Britney... :)
Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your partner?
Hmmm... No comment.
How old will you be on your next birthday?
26. Holy crap.
Have you ever seen a live bat?
Does the zoo count?
Is there anything/anyone you hate?
Onions, also allergic...
Are you single?
Yes, kinda.
Do you like the color orange?
No.
Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
Most of the time.
Would you rather not drink or not sleep?
Not drink.
Have you ever seen a real redneck?
lol, yes.
Do tattoos and piercings excite you?
lol excite in which way? (I'm not clear on this either!)
What's the meaning of life?
I think this depends on the person and where they are at.
What size shoes do you wear in womens/mens?
11W. I have gargantuan feet!
What's your favorite season?
Summer.
Do you care if people talk smack about you?
Sometimes.
At what age do you want to get married?
Whenever.
How long are you on the phone daily?
Not as much as I used to be.
Sorry, I forgot to ask your name?
Erin.
Are you in a good mood?
Not right now.
Do you think people will exist forever?
Forever is an existentialist concept, therefore does it exist? Do we exist? Hmmm...
Do you believe in luck?
Sometimes.
Everything happens for a reason, right?
Yes.
Would you rather skydive or bungee jump?
Skydive, it might get me over my fear of heights!
Do you like snakes?
I don't dislike them.
Where is one place that you'd like to visit?
Australia!
Do you like waffles?
Yes.
Anything your looking forward to?
Trip to BC with my mom in a couple of weeks!
Do you have more or less than five best friends?
Less.
What would you do if the friend you talk to most stopped talking to you?
Try to find out why.
Does the number 23 have any significance to you?
No.
Be honest, do you like people in general?
Sometimes.
Big or small dogs?
Big.
Do you like Big Macs?
Yuck.
Did someone bother you today?
Yes.
What do you think about death?
it happens to everyone and you can only put it off for so long (I agree!)
Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?
Yes.
Does someone love you?
I would think so.
Do you know anyone named Dave?
A few people.
Recently kissed anyone with the name starting with a R?
No.
Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
Yes.
Have you ever tried Gatorade?
Yes.
Do you think that Starbucks is expensive?
Yes.
Are you named after a family member?
No.
Say you were given a drug test right now. Would you pass or fail?
Pass.
Are you taller than 5'6“?
Yes.
Ever see a dead body?
Yes.
Do you like the color blue?
Yes.
How are you?
Tired, upset.
Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Amber.
Last restaurant you went to?
lol, Denny's!
What is the weather like today?
Don't know, it was cloudy when I got to work and snowing when I came out...
Last voicemail you received?
My mom telling me where she was on the highway.
What did you do yesterday?
Drive back from Lethbridge, worked, went for food with people.
What's the first thing you would do with five million dollars?
Go on a LONG vacation!
How many hours did you sleep last night?
5
Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
Yes!
Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
No one. Why would anyone stalk me?
Have you ever been on your school's track team?
Yes, Shotput and Discus.
What clothes are you wearing?
Nightgown/Robe-thing.
If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
Probably be the driver...
How much money do you have, in cash?
$40ish
Do you swear at your parents?
Not at, around.
Is your phone right beside you?
Yes.
Have you cried today?
Yes.
Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
No idea.
Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
No.
What are the color of your bedsheets?
Purple with Tinkerbell here, pink with stripes in Lethbridge.
Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes.
Are you photogenic?
Sometimes.
What's your sign?
Cancer/Leo
Where do you spend most of your money?
School, transportation, clothes.
What was the last thing you spent money on?
Dinner with friends.
Do you have a tattoo?
Yes.
Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
No, I'm generally at work.
Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends?
Yes.
Have you ever told someone you loved them but didn't mean it?
No.
Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
Yes.
What are you doing in 2008?
Applying to go to grad school, working full-time, spending time with my friends and family.
What is your ringtone?
1-2 step.
What were you doing at 2 a.m. last night?
Talking to Kevin via text message.
Are your parents married/divorced/separated?
Married.
What are you doing tonight?
Sleep.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Work, hospital, cleaning, sleep.
Who did you last message on Myspace?
Tom?
When were in the hospital last?
IN the hospital, technically at the beginning of February for my knee surgery. AT the hospital was earlier this week.
What is the last movie you went to?
Horton Hears a Who
What do you want to do in the near future?
Teach!
Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do?
YES!
What did you dress up as for your first Halloween?
There were pictures of me as a clown when I was little but I don't know about earlier than that.
What is the wallpaper on your cell?
Sunset over the prairies on my way to Lethbridge.
Who last made you smile?
Amber.
I think this was stolen from Christina...
Can you answer 50 questions about the 1st person that comes into your mind right now?
Don’t change the person.
Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend??
Not right now.
How old is the person?
18
Has he/she ever cooked for you?
Yes!
Is this person older than you?
No.
Are you really close to him/her?
Generally speaking.
How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
Every day in some form.
Do you think they will repost this?
Probably not.
Could you live with this person?
Probably.
Why did you choose this person?
She's my bestfriend.
How long have you known this person??
3 or so years.
Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
Never... We hate shopping. *rolling eyes*
Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
Too many to count by now!
If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
YES!
Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
Stupid maybe... Not illegal.
Do you know everything about this person?
Not everything but we know a lot about each other!
Would you date this person’s siblings?
No.
Have you ever made something with this person?
Yes.
Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
lol, no.
Have you and your person made up a hand shake?
No.
If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
Sure, it would make life interesting!
Have you ever heard this person sing?
At THING, in the car, etc. But she "doesn't sing."
Do you and this person have a saying?
Too many to name...
Do you know this persons f'ster password?
No.
Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight?
Once. :(
Have you and this person gone clubbing?
YES!
Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
I have some ideas but it depends on the day and what's going on...
Do you and this person talk a lot?
Yes.
Do you like this person?
She's my bestfriend and my little sister!
Do you want to go out with this person??
No.
Do you want to be friends with them forever?
Yes.
I've been feeling a lot lately like I'm not necessarily in the right place at the right time. And I don't mean occasionally or in some deja-vu sense but all the time... Like, am I supposed to be living here, spending time with the people I do, becoming involved in the things I am, etc. Sometimes I feel overcommitted and other times I feel as though my life is at loose ends and I have too much time on my hands. I have been working and going to school so much lately that the only day off I technically have is Wednesday which is when I try to schedule things like doctor's appointments, counseling, I drive back from Lethbridge (normally) and so on. So, I try to pack the stuff that I neglect or forget to get done the rest of the week into that one day. I make the phone calls, send the e-mails, organize what I need to and generally run around like a chicken with its head cut off. Therefore, my day of rest is almost as stressful as the rest of my week. That's the other thing... I normally love working with and meeting people. Lately, I have been annoyed really easily by little, normally stupid things, and am having a hard time with life in general. I'm not sure why and I'm not sure what's going on but I hope to figure it out soon...
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Family Tree and other stuff...
I spent the last four days in Saskatchewan. It was an interesting trip, I got to meet some family members I hadn't met before and learned a lot about my family's history. The hospitality of the people we met (both family and non) was amazing! I am piecing together the family tree more and more now, especially after finding some information in the book "Bridging the Years." I photocopied the pages that were specifically about my family and didn't further read into the fact that I need to read a few other pages that relate as well which (without the book) is frustrating... :P Oh well... I'm at the point that I'm relying on others for information and I am planning on another trip out to Blaine Lake and that area in the Spring/Summer. I'm thinking probably May or June. Thanks to everyone who has given me information thus far! I think that having a family reunion would be awesome at some point as well.... But it's just a thought!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Life, in general, right now...
So, I love this semester thus far! There have been various social situations that add to the way I am feeling about school, work, and life in general.
School is great so far! I have a lot of reading to do and a bunch of essays, assignments, exams and such yet to come this semester but I look forward to many of these upcoming projects!
I will admit, I do feel a little like an idiot, I have my English class to finish off my minor as well as an Anthropology class (because it seems interesting) and a Music History class. I should point out that the reason I’m feeling like an idiot is because two of the aforementioned courses are in the 1000-level. For my degree I was allowed either eight or ten 1000-level courses and I think I only ended up with three or four by the end of my degree program. Now, I need to boost my GPA (as pneumonia last year at the beginning of my Spring semester = dead GPA) so I am taking things I am interested in or things I wanted to take and now have the time/room to take. The Music History class is “History of Rock ‘n’ Roll 1970-1990” and I took the first part of this course (up to 1970) but haven’t had time to take this one.
I am finding English frustrating thus far, mainly because I’m not big into Romantic and Victorian poetry but I am trying to be open-minded. The professor has had us listening to songs and such to help relate the older styles of writing to contemporary disciplines. Most recently, we listened to a rap by Common Sense. It was an interesting correlation, especially as I’m a Music major. I have to admit, I am still worried about speaking up in this class. I’m a perfectionist and I hate being wrong, especially when everyone in the class either laughs or I get the “WTF?” look… But when we began by talking about Romantic poetry, my first thought isn’t “roses, champagne, candlelight, moonlight, love” and so on. To me, it’s a time period in which the formerly used ways of doing things were rethought and many people (mainly composers in my thoughts!) reverted back to a prior way of doing things while adding new elements. It’s late 1700’s through to the 19th-century. I see it that way because of the fact that after that, there is a Victorian Era in writing, and the 20th-century perspective in music. Either way, it was interesting to see who knew the difference. When I mentioned it in class during her question about “what does romantic mean to you?” I asked, “Are we talking about the time period or…?” and she told me we were going to get to that! It made me feel not quite so stupid! (Not that I’m stupid, I just think in a different way than many of my peers.)
In my Anthropology class, I’m pretty bored thus far. Part of it is that the first couple of classes all we really talked about was what is theory, how does it apply to life throughout Anthropology and other disciplines as well as definitions of things relating to Evolution. I will admit, I believe in Creation, not Evolution so right now, it’s hard for me to completely relate. I am finding the discussions on Aztec sacrifices and debate about terms interesting though.
Music History… I love the music we discuss and the stories behind the lyrics in the music as well as the history of each of then group’s formation and membership. We have listened to groups such as Deep Purple, Led Zeppelin, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Allman Brothers, Charlie Daniel’s Band and Black Sabbath. I love many of the songs we are listening to and I already downloaded many of the songs for the upcoming weeks and we are listening to Pink Floyd, Kiss, The Who, Genesis, Chicago, etc. I think this class will be a nice break (although it is a LOT harder than most people think… this isn’t a “rocks for jocks” or “scopes for dopes” class!) AND as it’s a music class, it means that I can take the time to study it and won’t feel completely pressured right now. Last semester I could have used a break like that but I didn’t take anything that allowed me that break and almost (or did) burn myself out. This week we are starting with Santana and going over The Doobie Brothers, Aerosmith, and more. I’m super excited! I think part of the reason that I like the class so much is that the professor is entertaining (meaning: she knows her stuff and makes it fun to learn about!) and seems to have fun teaching this class!
My social life has also been interesting. I think that I have been to more birthdays, parties and such in the last few weeks than I did in the last six months of 2007.
After my Christmas party, I had a few people over to watch movies and such a couple of times. Amber’s family, as well as Adam and Julie had New Year’s parties. It was interesting to see everyone at both houses and I’m glad that Matt offered to drive, it was nice to not have to that night. A bunch of us spent the night at Amber’s and it was a nice chance to hang out and not have to worry about being the hostess. Props to Amber’s family for having us over!
A couple of the birthday parties were for Jen’s 18th and Jade’s 16th within a couple of days of each other. We played funny games and such at both and both girls seemed to enjoy their parties, which was awesome to see! In the coming weeks, I have a LOT of friends who have a birthday. But… many of them haven’t told me what they want for their birthday so I may not be buying gifts, I may just get cards for many of them… C’est la vie…
A few of us (Ben, Amber, Matt, Mike, Kevin and I) went to see “Jawbone Hill” play at the Rusty Cage South. We ran into people like Neil, Anne, Vicky, Shaun and Troy (who I hadn’t seen in year!) and generally just had fun talking, listening to/singing along with the music, eating wings (I highly recommend them, they were excellent!) drinking and dancing. I was the DD so I think we need to go again when I can have a drink or two. Some people were doing shots together and I find it interesting what they like and don’t like tended to mesh more than I would have anticipated. The funniest part of the evening for me was watching my friends flirt with each other and the guys at the table behind us check out my friends.
This weekend was jam-packed, although it didn’t start out that way… Wednesday I was in Calgary and Kurt called to see if I wanted to go to Denny’s for food. He told me to invite Amber, he’d call Nathan and see who else I could invite and he’d see me there. It ended up being Kurtis, Amber, Mark, Jordan, Matt, Ben and I. The conversation was inappropriate at times but we had fun. Thursday I stayed in Calgary, mainly due to roads and weather, also because one of my classes was cancelled. Thursday night Ben, Kurtis, Amber and I hit the pool at the club and then they went for wings, I met Matt and we went out to Adam and Julie’s house. We watched “Mr. Woodcock” with Julie, Adam, Christine and Melynda. Friday night Janice, Jade, Amber and I went to see Kevin in “The Pirates of Penzance” at the University of Calgary, presented by the U of C Operetta Company. It was awesome! Afterwards, Amber was spending the night at my house so we randomly texted a bunch of people and went to BP’s. We figured we’d end up with my brother John (who was with us at this point), maybe Kurtis and maybe Ben. The final group was: John A, John S, Matt, Ben, Marshall, Amber and I. And while we were there Nathan and Ali stopped in to say hello. Amber and I went home and talked until really late… Saturday, Amber and I had plans to grab dinner together, then go to Trevor’s birthday party for a bit. Meghan came over in the afternoon and we decided (the three of us) that we would go see a movie. There were other reasons for that decision but I’m not going to get into them right now. I texted a bunch of people and it ended up that Matt, Megs, Amber and I went to Trev’s for a bit, then went and saw “27 Dresses” which was an amazing movie! One I would see again and will probably buy when it comes out on DVD. Afterwards, I took them home and to their vehicles respectively and went home. Ben came over for a bit and he and John sat and talked for a while and then he and I sat and talked. Sunday I had to work, I wanted to go the Hitmen game (I had been invited…) but it started before I was off so I had to miss it. I went and got Kalynda and we surprised the Hayward’s, who knew I was coming over but not that I would have Kalynda with me. We had cake and ice cream, Janice opened her present and then Amber and I drove Kalynda home. We ended up meeting Kurtis and Nathan for “coffee” at the Blackfoot truck stop… It was interesting. I’ve only been there once before, Amber hadn’t been there. We plugged the table-side jukebox with $2 and chose our 7 songs… I’m not sure if singing along in public was appropriate but we did it anyway! :) We had a blast!
This coming weekend won’t be quite as full… I don’t think. Thursday, Grace Baptist is having their annual “Beach Night” and I’m going to try to go for a bit. Then, Jawbone Hill is playing at the original Rusty Cage so we’re going to go check that out. Friday I leave for Edmonton for the weekend. I’m staying with my friends Dana and Mike and it should be a blast! I’m looking forward to hitting the mall on Saturday and going bowling with the other Rovers. Sunday is the ARRT meeting and then I have my work Christmas Party back in Calgary that night. Monday, I work… Then back to school Tuesday!
I’ve discovered something about myself recently. I’m not looking forward to some of my classes because I am bored. Boredom for me = lack of interest. Also, being sick and trying to focus is not one of my strengths. As I have said, there are certain parts of my week that make being in class worthwhile so I’m glad I get to be there. I digress… The thing I discovered specifically is that I’m not happy with myself when I conform to who people think I am, as opposed to just acting like myself. I’m at the, “if you don’t like me for who I am, buzz off!” stage right now. I love my friends and I think that they are God’s way of keeping me sane as sometimes my family drives me nuts… I have recently come into contact with some new and old people. New, meaning I don’t know them very well yet. Old, meaning people I haven’t seen in years. I look forward to whatever the future holds! :)
On that note, I think that’s all I can physically type right now! My hands are sore… ;)
School is great so far! I have a lot of reading to do and a bunch of essays, assignments, exams and such yet to come this semester but I look forward to many of these upcoming projects!
I will admit, I do feel a little like an idiot, I have my English class to finish off my minor as well as an Anthropology class (because it seems interesting) and a Music History class. I should point out that the reason I’m feeling like an idiot is because two of the aforementioned courses are in the 1000-level. For my degree I was allowed either eight or ten 1000-level courses and I think I only ended up with three or four by the end of my degree program. Now, I need to boost my GPA (as pneumonia last year at the beginning of my Spring semester = dead GPA) so I am taking things I am interested in or things I wanted to take and now have the time/room to take. The Music History class is “History of Rock ‘n’ Roll 1970-1990” and I took the first part of this course (up to 1970) but haven’t had time to take this one.
I am finding English frustrating thus far, mainly because I’m not big into Romantic and Victorian poetry but I am trying to be open-minded. The professor has had us listening to songs and such to help relate the older styles of writing to contemporary disciplines. Most recently, we listened to a rap by Common Sense. It was an interesting correlation, especially as I’m a Music major. I have to admit, I am still worried about speaking up in this class. I’m a perfectionist and I hate being wrong, especially when everyone in the class either laughs or I get the “WTF?” look… But when we began by talking about Romantic poetry, my first thought isn’t “roses, champagne, candlelight, moonlight, love” and so on. To me, it’s a time period in which the formerly used ways of doing things were rethought and many people (mainly composers in my thoughts!) reverted back to a prior way of doing things while adding new elements. It’s late 1700’s through to the 19th-century. I see it that way because of the fact that after that, there is a Victorian Era in writing, and the 20th-century perspective in music. Either way, it was interesting to see who knew the difference. When I mentioned it in class during her question about “what does romantic mean to you?” I asked, “Are we talking about the time period or…?” and she told me we were going to get to that! It made me feel not quite so stupid! (Not that I’m stupid, I just think in a different way than many of my peers.)
In my Anthropology class, I’m pretty bored thus far. Part of it is that the first couple of classes all we really talked about was what is theory, how does it apply to life throughout Anthropology and other disciplines as well as definitions of things relating to Evolution. I will admit, I believe in Creation, not Evolution so right now, it’s hard for me to completely relate. I am finding the discussions on Aztec sacrifices and debate about terms interesting though.
Music History… I love the music we discuss and the stories behind the lyrics in the music as well as the history of each of then group’s formation and membership. We have listened to groups such as Deep Purple, Led Zeppelin, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Allman Brothers, Charlie Daniel’s Band and Black Sabbath. I love many of the songs we are listening to and I already downloaded many of the songs for the upcoming weeks and we are listening to Pink Floyd, Kiss, The Who, Genesis, Chicago, etc. I think this class will be a nice break (although it is a LOT harder than most people think… this isn’t a “rocks for jocks” or “scopes for dopes” class!) AND as it’s a music class, it means that I can take the time to study it and won’t feel completely pressured right now. Last semester I could have used a break like that but I didn’t take anything that allowed me that break and almost (or did) burn myself out. This week we are starting with Santana and going over The Doobie Brothers, Aerosmith, and more. I’m super excited! I think part of the reason that I like the class so much is that the professor is entertaining (meaning: she knows her stuff and makes it fun to learn about!) and seems to have fun teaching this class!
My social life has also been interesting. I think that I have been to more birthdays, parties and such in the last few weeks than I did in the last six months of 2007.
After my Christmas party, I had a few people over to watch movies and such a couple of times. Amber’s family, as well as Adam and Julie had New Year’s parties. It was interesting to see everyone at both houses and I’m glad that Matt offered to drive, it was nice to not have to that night. A bunch of us spent the night at Amber’s and it was a nice chance to hang out and not have to worry about being the hostess. Props to Amber’s family for having us over!
A couple of the birthday parties were for Jen’s 18th and Jade’s 16th within a couple of days of each other. We played funny games and such at both and both girls seemed to enjoy their parties, which was awesome to see! In the coming weeks, I have a LOT of friends who have a birthday. But… many of them haven’t told me what they want for their birthday so I may not be buying gifts, I may just get cards for many of them… C’est la vie…
A few of us (Ben, Amber, Matt, Mike, Kevin and I) went to see “Jawbone Hill” play at the Rusty Cage South. We ran into people like Neil, Anne, Vicky, Shaun and Troy (who I hadn’t seen in year!) and generally just had fun talking, listening to/singing along with the music, eating wings (I highly recommend them, they were excellent!) drinking and dancing. I was the DD so I think we need to go again when I can have a drink or two. Some people were doing shots together and I find it interesting what they like and don’t like tended to mesh more than I would have anticipated. The funniest part of the evening for me was watching my friends flirt with each other and the guys at the table behind us check out my friends.
This weekend was jam-packed, although it didn’t start out that way… Wednesday I was in Calgary and Kurt called to see if I wanted to go to Denny’s for food. He told me to invite Amber, he’d call Nathan and see who else I could invite and he’d see me there. It ended up being Kurtis, Amber, Mark, Jordan, Matt, Ben and I. The conversation was inappropriate at times but we had fun. Thursday I stayed in Calgary, mainly due to roads and weather, also because one of my classes was cancelled. Thursday night Ben, Kurtis, Amber and I hit the pool at the club and then they went for wings, I met Matt and we went out to Adam and Julie’s house. We watched “Mr. Woodcock” with Julie, Adam, Christine and Melynda. Friday night Janice, Jade, Amber and I went to see Kevin in “The Pirates of Penzance” at the University of Calgary, presented by the U of C Operetta Company. It was awesome! Afterwards, Amber was spending the night at my house so we randomly texted a bunch of people and went to BP’s. We figured we’d end up with my brother John (who was with us at this point), maybe Kurtis and maybe Ben. The final group was: John A, John S, Matt, Ben, Marshall, Amber and I. And while we were there Nathan and Ali stopped in to say hello. Amber and I went home and talked until really late… Saturday, Amber and I had plans to grab dinner together, then go to Trevor’s birthday party for a bit. Meghan came over in the afternoon and we decided (the three of us) that we would go see a movie. There were other reasons for that decision but I’m not going to get into them right now. I texted a bunch of people and it ended up that Matt, Megs, Amber and I went to Trev’s for a bit, then went and saw “27 Dresses” which was an amazing movie! One I would see again and will probably buy when it comes out on DVD. Afterwards, I took them home and to their vehicles respectively and went home. Ben came over for a bit and he and John sat and talked for a while and then he and I sat and talked. Sunday I had to work, I wanted to go the Hitmen game (I had been invited…) but it started before I was off so I had to miss it. I went and got Kalynda and we surprised the Hayward’s, who knew I was coming over but not that I would have Kalynda with me. We had cake and ice cream, Janice opened her present and then Amber and I drove Kalynda home. We ended up meeting Kurtis and Nathan for “coffee” at the Blackfoot truck stop… It was interesting. I’ve only been there once before, Amber hadn’t been there. We plugged the table-side jukebox with $2 and chose our 7 songs… I’m not sure if singing along in public was appropriate but we did it anyway! :) We had a blast!
This coming weekend won’t be quite as full… I don’t think. Thursday, Grace Baptist is having their annual “Beach Night” and I’m going to try to go for a bit. Then, Jawbone Hill is playing at the original Rusty Cage so we’re going to go check that out. Friday I leave for Edmonton for the weekend. I’m staying with my friends Dana and Mike and it should be a blast! I’m looking forward to hitting the mall on Saturday and going bowling with the other Rovers. Sunday is the ARRT meeting and then I have my work Christmas Party back in Calgary that night. Monday, I work… Then back to school Tuesday!
I’ve discovered something about myself recently. I’m not looking forward to some of my classes because I am bored. Boredom for me = lack of interest. Also, being sick and trying to focus is not one of my strengths. As I have said, there are certain parts of my week that make being in class worthwhile so I’m glad I get to be there. I digress… The thing I discovered specifically is that I’m not happy with myself when I conform to who people think I am, as opposed to just acting like myself. I’m at the, “if you don’t like me for who I am, buzz off!” stage right now. I love my friends and I think that they are God’s way of keeping me sane as sometimes my family drives me nuts… I have recently come into contact with some new and old people. New, meaning I don’t know them very well yet. Old, meaning people I haven’t seen in years. I look forward to whatever the future holds! :)
On that note, I think that’s all I can physically type right now! My hands are sore… ;)
Monday, January 07, 2008
Seems to be a year for weddings...
So, many of my friends and other people I have known over time are getting married within the next year. I have a few friends who got married last year and for those of you, I'm not forgetting you, I'm just realizing how many weddings I have heard about recently.
As an example, last year my Auntie Mary married Hugh, my cousin Yvon married Lisa, Ken and Laurel got married, Scott and Sam, as well as Selena and Nathan. Now, I didn't attend all of the weddings but I know that they were filled with people who love and care about each couple and that the couples are incredibly happy together. This is a HUGE blessing to see...
This year the weddings start this coming weekend with Dana and Jon, Tara and Nolan this spring, then Justin and Candace in June, Erin and Trevor as well as Randi and Adrian in July, Ian and Christine in August, Lauren and Ian in the fall and I believe Nancy and Andrew are in there somewhere as well... I just want to say to all of these couples that I am sending best wishes and much happiness as they begin their lives together!
So, many of my blogs of late have been music related, this one is no different. Except, the songs are songs that I often associate with weddings and all have meanings which are special to me and to some of my friends. I know, this may be boring to read but if nothing else, check out the videos I have included for each song. :)
Butterfly Kisses by Bob Carlisle
There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from Heaven
And she's daddys little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony daddy
It's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny daddy
But i sure tried
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every mornin
And butterfly kisses at night
Sweet 16 today
She's lookin like her mama
A little more every day
One part woman
The other part girl
To perfume and make up
From ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember
Butterlfy kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you dady
But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I muct have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin
And butterfly kisses at night
All the precious time
Like the wind the years go by
Precious Butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away
Standing in the bride room just starin at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl
And she leaned over
And gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the aisle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddys don't cry
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin and butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the mornin and butterfly kisses at night
I have loved this song for years... It was MAJORLY overplayed for a while and I think part of that was because it makes for a perfect father-daughter dance at a wedding and the radio stations were wanting some major publicity for it. I can't even count how many weddings I have been to where this was the song that one of my friends and her dad danced to.
The next two were both sung by the same artist. I love her older stuff and I know that Kristyn and Ryan's song is the first one. The second is one I love and may consider using in the future.
Power of Love by Celine Dion
The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you
Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
the power of love
the power of love
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
the power of love
Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
The next one is Adam and Julie's song. I first heard it years ago (when I was REALLY into Everclear) and it is a great song! Every time I hear it, I think of them and how much they love each other and how strong their relationship is and has been over time.
The Good Witch Of The North by Everclear
You pull me down
To the floor
Of our apartment
A little while later
We are laughing at our
carpet burns
I like the way that it
glows outside
As the room gets darker
How I wish we could stay
like this
While the rest of the
world turns
There has never been a time
When I didn't want to be
your boyfriend
There has never been a time
When I didn't want to know
your name
Free falling from a work
in progress
Free falling from a life on hold
There has never been a time
When I didn't want you
My good lover
Is my one good thing
these days
You help me keep it all
From slipping away
I swear I'm going to
Marry you
Someday (someday)
I am all alone
And it seems like
All I do is wait
We spend hours on the phone
But it's never the same
No, nothing good ever does
come easy
Nothing good ever comes
without a fight
I am all alone
And I wish I was home
With you tonight
Yes, my good lover
Is my one good thing
these days
You help me keep it all
From slipping away
I swear I'm going to
Marry you
Someday
My girlfriend is like
Magic in the hand
When I lose my sparkle
She's the one
that understands
I know I'm going to marry you
someday
I swear I'm going to marry you
someday
I swear I'm going to marry you...
Someday
The next song is Yvon and Lisa's wedding song. I loved the song when it first came out. I love Tim McGraw's music in general. And now, whenever I hear this song, I think of the two of them. You two are so awesome together and I'm incredibly happy to welcome Lisa to the family (again)!
My Best Friend by Tim McGraw
I never had no one
I could count on
I’ve been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin’
So tired of searchin’
’til you walked into my life
It was a feelin’
I’d never known
And for the first time
I didn’t feel alone
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend, oh yeah
You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You’re right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend (my best friend)
You’re my best friend (my best friend)
I'm not going to explain the next few other than to say that they are beautiful songs. The remind me of some of my favourite people and their weddings...
Amazed by Lonestar
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Everything I Do by Bryan Adams
Look into my eyes - you will see,
What you mean to me.
Search your heart - search your soul,
And when you find me there, you'll search no more.
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for.
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for.
You know it's true,
Everything I do - I do it for you.
Look into your heart - you will find,
There's nothin' there to hide.
Take me as I am - take my life,
I would give it all - I would sacrifice.
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for.
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more.
Ya know it's true,
Everything I do - I do it for you.
There's no love - like your love.
And no other - could give more love.
There's nowhere - unless you're there.
All the time - all the way.
Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for.
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more,
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you.
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you.
Ya know it's true.
Everything I do - I do it for you.
A Moment Like This by Kelly Clarkson
What if I told you
It was all meant to be?
Would you believe me?
Would you walk away?
It's almost that feeling,
We've met before.
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here and now.
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming,
but till I awake
Can't we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this..
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment...
like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh, I can't belive it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this...
oooohh...like this...
One Boy, One Girl by Collin Raye
He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend when she said
"There's someone you should meet."
At a crowded restaurant way 'cross town,
he waited impatiently.
She walked in, their eyes met, and they both stared.
And right there and then, everyone else disappeared,
But one boy, and one girl,
two hearts beating wildly.
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.
He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
that this was the day they'd waited for all their lives.
And for a moment the whole world
revolved around one boy and one girl.
In no time at all they were standing there, in the front of a little church,
among their friends and family, repeating those sacred words.
Preacher said, "Son kiss your bride" and he raised her veil.
And like the night they met, time just stood still
For one boy, and one girl,
two hearts beating wildly.
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.
He smiled, and she smiled, and they knew right away
that this was the day they'd waited for all their lives.
For a moment the whole world
revoloved around one boy and one girl.
He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned
"Congratulations. Twins..."
One boy, one girl.
Two hearts beting wildly.
To put it mildly it was love at first sight.
He smiled, and she smiled,
and they knew right away
that this was the day they'd waited for all their lives.
For a moment the whole world revoloved around one boy and one girl.
(This isn't the original, I couldn't find it but this one is cute...)
I Can Love You Like That by All 4 One
(and redone by John Michael Montgomery)
They read you Cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your Prince Charming
Would come rescue you
You like romantic movies
You never will forget
The way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliet
All this time that you've been waiting
You don't have to wait no more
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that
I never make a promise I don't intend to keep
So when I say forever, forever's what I mean
I'm no Casanova but I swear this much is true
I'll be holdin' nothin' back when it comes to you
You dream of love that's everlasting
Well baby open up your eyes
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that
You want tenderness-I got tenderness
And I see through to the heart of you
If you want a man who understands
You don't have to look very far
I can love you
I can
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
All 4 One
John Michael Montgomery
All For Love by Bryan Adams, Sting and Rod Stewart
When it's love you give
(I'll be a man of good faith.)
Then in love you live.
(I'll make a stand. I won't break.)
I'll be the rock you can build on,
Be there when you're old,
To have and to hold.
When there's love inside
(I swear I'll always be strong.)
Then there's a reason why.
(I'll prove to you we belong.)
I'll be the wal that protects you
From the wind and the rain,
From the hurt and pain.
Let's make it all for one and all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.
When it's love you make
(I'll be the fire in your night.)
Then it's love you take.
(I will defend, I will fight.)
I'll be there when you need me.
When honor's at stake,
This vow I will make:
That it's all for one and all for love.
Let the one be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.
Don't lay our love to rest
'Cause we could stand up to you test.
We got everything and more than we had planned,
More than the rivers that run the land.
We've got it all in our hands.
Now it's all for one and all for love.
(It's all for love.)
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
(It's one for all.)
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show.
When there's someone that you want,
When there's someone that you need
Let's make it all, all for one and all for love.
As an example, last year my Auntie Mary married Hugh, my cousin Yvon married Lisa, Ken and Laurel got married, Scott and Sam, as well as Selena and Nathan. Now, I didn't attend all of the weddings but I know that they were filled with people who love and care about each couple and that the couples are incredibly happy together. This is a HUGE blessing to see...
This year the weddings start this coming weekend with Dana and Jon, Tara and Nolan this spring, then Justin and Candace in June, Erin and Trevor as well as Randi and Adrian in July, Ian and Christine in August, Lauren and Ian in the fall and I believe Nancy and Andrew are in there somewhere as well... I just want to say to all of these couples that I am sending best wishes and much happiness as they begin their lives together!
So, many of my blogs of late have been music related, this one is no different. Except, the songs are songs that I often associate with weddings and all have meanings which are special to me and to some of my friends. I know, this may be boring to read but if nothing else, check out the videos I have included for each song. :)
Butterfly Kisses by Bob Carlisle
There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from Heaven
And she's daddys little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony daddy
It's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny daddy
But i sure tried
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every mornin
And butterfly kisses at night
Sweet 16 today
She's lookin like her mama
A little more every day
One part woman
The other part girl
To perfume and make up
From ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember
Butterlfy kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you dady
But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I muct have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin
And butterfly kisses at night
All the precious time
Like the wind the years go by
Precious Butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away
Standing in the bride room just starin at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl
And she leaned over
And gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the aisle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddys don't cry
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin and butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the mornin and butterfly kisses at night
I have loved this song for years... It was MAJORLY overplayed for a while and I think part of that was because it makes for a perfect father-daughter dance at a wedding and the radio stations were wanting some major publicity for it. I can't even count how many weddings I have been to where this was the song that one of my friends and her dad danced to.
The next two were both sung by the same artist. I love her older stuff and I know that Kristyn and Ryan's song is the first one. The second is one I love and may consider using in the future.
Power of Love by Celine Dion
The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you
Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
the power of love
the power of love
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
the power of love
Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
The next one is Adam and Julie's song. I first heard it years ago (when I was REALLY into Everclear) and it is a great song! Every time I hear it, I think of them and how much they love each other and how strong their relationship is and has been over time.
The Good Witch Of The North by Everclear
You pull me down
To the floor
Of our apartment
A little while later
We are laughing at our
carpet burns
I like the way that it
glows outside
As the room gets darker
How I wish we could stay
like this
While the rest of the
world turns
There has never been a time
When I didn't want to be
your boyfriend
There has never been a time
When I didn't want to know
your name
Free falling from a work
in progress
Free falling from a life on hold
There has never been a time
When I didn't want you
My good lover
Is my one good thing
these days
You help me keep it all
From slipping away
I swear I'm going to
Marry you
Someday (someday)
I am all alone
And it seems like
All I do is wait
We spend hours on the phone
But it's never the same
No, nothing good ever does
come easy
Nothing good ever comes
without a fight
I am all alone
And I wish I was home
With you tonight
Yes, my good lover
Is my one good thing
these days
You help me keep it all
From slipping away
I swear I'm going to
Marry you
Someday
My girlfriend is like
Magic in the hand
When I lose my sparkle
She's the one
that understands
I know I'm going to marry you
someday
I swear I'm going to marry you
someday
I swear I'm going to marry you...
Someday
The next song is Yvon and Lisa's wedding song. I loved the song when it first came out. I love Tim McGraw's music in general. And now, whenever I hear this song, I think of the two of them. You two are so awesome together and I'm incredibly happy to welcome Lisa to the family (again)!
My Best Friend by Tim McGraw
I never had no one
I could count on
I’ve been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin’
So tired of searchin’
’til you walked into my life
It was a feelin’
I’d never known
And for the first time
I didn’t feel alone
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend, oh yeah
You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You’re right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend (my best friend)
You’re my best friend (my best friend)
I'm not going to explain the next few other than to say that they are beautiful songs. The remind me of some of my favourite people and their weddings...
Amazed by Lonestar
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Everything I Do by Bryan Adams
Look into my eyes - you will see,
What you mean to me.
Search your heart - search your soul,
And when you find me there, you'll search no more.
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for.
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for.
You know it's true,
Everything I do - I do it for you.
Look into your heart - you will find,
There's nothin' there to hide.
Take me as I am - take my life,
I would give it all - I would sacrifice.
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for.
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more.
Ya know it's true,
Everything I do - I do it for you.
There's no love - like your love.
And no other - could give more love.
There's nowhere - unless you're there.
All the time - all the way.
Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for.
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more,
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you.
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you.
Ya know it's true.
Everything I do - I do it for you.
A Moment Like This by Kelly Clarkson
What if I told you
It was all meant to be?
Would you believe me?
Would you walk away?
It's almost that feeling,
We've met before.
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here and now.
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming,
but till I awake
Can't we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this..
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment...
like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh, I can't belive it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this...
oooohh...like this...
One Boy, One Girl by Collin Raye
He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend when she said
"There's someone you should meet."
At a crowded restaurant way 'cross town,
he waited impatiently.
She walked in, their eyes met, and they both stared.
And right there and then, everyone else disappeared,
But one boy, and one girl,
two hearts beating wildly.
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.
He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
that this was the day they'd waited for all their lives.
And for a moment the whole world
revolved around one boy and one girl.
In no time at all they were standing there, in the front of a little church,
among their friends and family, repeating those sacred words.
Preacher said, "Son kiss your bride" and he raised her veil.
And like the night they met, time just stood still
For one boy, and one girl,
two hearts beating wildly.
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.
He smiled, and she smiled, and they knew right away
that this was the day they'd waited for all their lives.
For a moment the whole world
revoloved around one boy and one girl.
He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned
"Congratulations. Twins..."
One boy, one girl.
Two hearts beting wildly.
To put it mildly it was love at first sight.
He smiled, and she smiled,
and they knew right away
that this was the day they'd waited for all their lives.
For a moment the whole world revoloved around one boy and one girl.
(This isn't the original, I couldn't find it but this one is cute...)
I Can Love You Like That by All 4 One
(and redone by John Michael Montgomery)
They read you Cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your Prince Charming
Would come rescue you
You like romantic movies
You never will forget
The way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliet
All this time that you've been waiting
You don't have to wait no more
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that
I never make a promise I don't intend to keep
So when I say forever, forever's what I mean
I'm no Casanova but I swear this much is true
I'll be holdin' nothin' back when it comes to you
You dream of love that's everlasting
Well baby open up your eyes
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that
You want tenderness-I got tenderness
And I see through to the heart of you
If you want a man who understands
You don't have to look very far
I can love you
I can
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
All 4 One
John Michael Montgomery
All For Love by Bryan Adams, Sting and Rod Stewart
When it's love you give
(I'll be a man of good faith.)
Then in love you live.
(I'll make a stand. I won't break.)
I'll be the rock you can build on,
Be there when you're old,
To have and to hold.
When there's love inside
(I swear I'll always be strong.)
Then there's a reason why.
(I'll prove to you we belong.)
I'll be the wal that protects you
From the wind and the rain,
From the hurt and pain.
Let's make it all for one and all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.
When it's love you make
(I'll be the fire in your night.)
Then it's love you take.
(I will defend, I will fight.)
I'll be there when you need me.
When honor's at stake,
This vow I will make:
That it's all for one and all for love.
Let the one be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.
Don't lay our love to rest
'Cause we could stand up to you test.
We got everything and more than we had planned,
More than the rivers that run the land.
We've got it all in our hands.
Now it's all for one and all for love.
(It's all for love.)
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
(It's one for all.)
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show.
When there's someone that you want,
When there's someone that you need
Let's make it all, all for one and all for love.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
10:03-10:17
1. Elaborate on your default picture?
My blog one is an icon I think it beautiful. My Facebook one is my brother's puppy when she was still really little right before I left for the U.K.
2. What's your current relationship status?
Single-ish?
3. Ever have a near-death experience?
I'm not sure... I sure thought so at the time!
4.Name an obvious quality you have.
Musical ability...?
5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
I always have a song in my head... Because of Jade and Amber, for the past couple of days it has been "Land of the Silver Birch."
6. Name a celebrity you would marry?
No idea, I don't think about most celebrities that way... Pointless!
7. Who will cut and paste this first?
I did it after Laura so I'm not sure...
8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
Yes, but that was ages ago.
9. Do you wear a watch? What kind?
No.
10. Do you have anything pierced?
Ears and nose.
11. Do you have any tattoos?
Yes, my friend Mike designed it for me! (I HIGHLY recommend him!)
12. Do you like pain?
No.
13. Do you like to shop?
Absolutely!
14. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Starbucks.
15. What is your favorite lamp that you own?
The one in my living room in Lethbridge, it has 6 lamp heads on it.
16. How many TVs are in your house?
Here, 2? Lethbridge, something stupid like 4?
17. What is on your desktop background?
My cousins and I at our other cousin's wedding. (Ashleigh and Heather and I.)
18. What is the background on your cell phone?
The sky line on the way to Lethbridge from Calgary on the number 2 highway one day.
19. What was the last movie you watched in theaters?
Enchanted.
20. What was the last book you read?
I've read a bunch over the Christmas break. Most of them are the teeny Harlequin romances...
21. Do you talk in your sleep?
Not that I know of.
22. Ocean or pool?
Either, I LOVE water!
23. Did you ever have a party that was busted by the cops?
No... But my BBQ last May was pretty close!
24. Current Crush?
No one really.
25. What's your favorite color(s)?
Pink, teal, turquoise, yellow.
26. Window seat or aisle seat?
Aisle, then I have leg room. But if I'm flying somewhere I've never been, I like the window.
27. Ever met anyone famous?
I met Savage Garden when I was in Jr. High and a few country artists (Vince Gill, Michelle Wright, etc) at the Big Valley Jamboree when I was younger.
28. Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
Sometimes.
29. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl... :)
30. Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
I like Oprah but I loved Ricki in the original Hairspray!
31. Baseball or Football?
Football.
32. How long do your showers last?
Anywhere from 10 minutes to half an hour.
33. Do you know how to drive a stick?
Yes.
34. Cake or ice cream?
Ice cream cake!! But ice cream. (lol, I agree with Laura on this one!)
35. Are you self-conscious?
Yes. Not as much as I used to be though.
36. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
Yes.
37. Have you been in love?
Thought so.
38. What is your favorite part of the Day / Night?
Day: seeing friends. Night: sleeping. (I agree with this too, but I'll add seeing my mom to daytime...)
39. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Not that I know of...?
40. Can you tango?
Yes.
41. Last gift you received?
A set of highball glasses. (Apparently I'm an alcoholic if the number of glasses I received for Christmas is any indication...)
42. Last sport you played?
Football.
43. What would you like to spend a lot of time doing?
Hanging out with my friends, swimming, reading... Just not school right now!
44. Last wedding attended?
Laurel and Ken's.
45. Favorite FAST food restaurant?
Lately, Orange Julius.
46. Most hated food?
ONIONS!
47. Can you sing?
Sometimes.
48. Last person that called you?
My mom.
49. What's your least favorite chore?
Dusting.
50. Favorite drink?
Hawaiian Hunny.
51. Have you been on a cruise?
No, but I want to.
52. Are you a vegetarian?
I don't generally eat red meat...?
53. Do you believe in Heaven?
Yes.
54. Favorite show?
Gossip Girl right now.
55. What jewelry do you wear?
Rings, earrings, sometimes a necklace and/or bracelets.
56. Are you eating?
No.
57. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
Yes.
58. Do you make commitments?
Yes.
59. Can you dance?
Kind of?
60. Would you ever have plastic surgery?
Yes.
61. What do you wear to bed?
Right now, satin PJ's but normally pajama pants and a t-shirt or tank top.
62. Have you ever done anything illegal?
Yes.
63. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes.
64. What kind of shoes are you wearing?
Slippers. They are pink with a pink ribbon with black spots.
65. What is your hair color?
Blonde-ish/Brown-ish?
66. Future child's name?
Jacob, Anastasia, Riley, Aubrey... I'm not sure but those are a few I like...
67. Do you snore?
I know I wheeze...?
68. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Already been to the U.K. and Hawaii, I'd love to go to New Zealand, Russia, France, Australia and the Caribbean.
69. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Sometimes.
70. If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
Pay off my student loans, buy a new car, buy my own place, donate some to charity, send my parents on a cruise.
71. Gold or silver?
White-gold. Or Platinum.
72. If you could be with someone for the rest of your life, who would it be?
No idea.
73. City, beach or country?
Beach!
74. What was the last thing you touched?
Keyboard.
75. Where did you eat out last?
Jugo Juice.
76. When's the last time you cried?
Sunday?
77. Do you read blogs?
Some. Kevin's and Matthew's and sometimes Laurel's, Anne's, Bean's, etc. (When they write in them!)
78. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
I think jeans and a hoodie may be considered doing that anyway...
79. Ever been involved with the police?
No.
80. Do you have pets?
Yes... Between my parents, my brother and I, we have 5 dogs and 3 cats.
My blog one is an icon I think it beautiful. My Facebook one is my brother's puppy when she was still really little right before I left for the U.K.
2. What's your current relationship status?
Single-ish?
3. Ever have a near-death experience?
I'm not sure... I sure thought so at the time!
4.Name an obvious quality you have.
Musical ability...?
5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
I always have a song in my head... Because of Jade and Amber, for the past couple of days it has been "Land of the Silver Birch."
6. Name a celebrity you would marry?
No idea, I don't think about most celebrities that way... Pointless!
7. Who will cut and paste this first?
I did it after Laura so I'm not sure...
8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
Yes, but that was ages ago.
9. Do you wear a watch? What kind?
No.
10. Do you have anything pierced?
Ears and nose.
11. Do you have any tattoos?
Yes, my friend Mike designed it for me! (I HIGHLY recommend him!)
12. Do you like pain?
No.
13. Do you like to shop?
Absolutely!
14. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Starbucks.
15. What is your favorite lamp that you own?
The one in my living room in Lethbridge, it has 6 lamp heads on it.
16. How many TVs are in your house?
Here, 2? Lethbridge, something stupid like 4?
17. What is on your desktop background?
My cousins and I at our other cousin's wedding. (Ashleigh and Heather and I.)
18. What is the background on your cell phone?
The sky line on the way to Lethbridge from Calgary on the number 2 highway one day.
19. What was the last movie you watched in theaters?
Enchanted.
20. What was the last book you read?
I've read a bunch over the Christmas break. Most of them are the teeny Harlequin romances...
21. Do you talk in your sleep?
Not that I know of.
22. Ocean or pool?
Either, I LOVE water!
23. Did you ever have a party that was busted by the cops?
No... But my BBQ last May was pretty close!
24. Current Crush?
No one really.
25. What's your favorite color(s)?
Pink, teal, turquoise, yellow.
26. Window seat or aisle seat?
Aisle, then I have leg room. But if I'm flying somewhere I've never been, I like the window.
27. Ever met anyone famous?
I met Savage Garden when I was in Jr. High and a few country artists (Vince Gill, Michelle Wright, etc) at the Big Valley Jamboree when I was younger.
28. Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
Sometimes.
29. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl... :)
30. Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
I like Oprah but I loved Ricki in the original Hairspray!
31. Baseball or Football?
Football.
32. How long do your showers last?
Anywhere from 10 minutes to half an hour.
33. Do you know how to drive a stick?
Yes.
34. Cake or ice cream?
Ice cream cake!! But ice cream. (lol, I agree with Laura on this one!)
35. Are you self-conscious?
Yes. Not as much as I used to be though.
36. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
Yes.
37. Have you been in love?
Thought so.
38. What is your favorite part of the Day / Night?
Day: seeing friends. Night: sleeping. (I agree with this too, but I'll add seeing my mom to daytime...)
39. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Not that I know of...?
40. Can you tango?
Yes.
41. Last gift you received?
A set of highball glasses. (Apparently I'm an alcoholic if the number of glasses I received for Christmas is any indication...)
42. Last sport you played?
Football.
43. What would you like to spend a lot of time doing?
Hanging out with my friends, swimming, reading... Just not school right now!
44. Last wedding attended?
Laurel and Ken's.
45. Favorite FAST food restaurant?
Lately, Orange Julius.
46. Most hated food?
ONIONS!
47. Can you sing?
Sometimes.
48. Last person that called you?
My mom.
49. What's your least favorite chore?
Dusting.
50. Favorite drink?
Hawaiian Hunny.
51. Have you been on a cruise?
No, but I want to.
52. Are you a vegetarian?
I don't generally eat red meat...?
53. Do you believe in Heaven?
Yes.
54. Favorite show?
Gossip Girl right now.
55. What jewelry do you wear?
Rings, earrings, sometimes a necklace and/or bracelets.
56. Are you eating?
No.
57. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
Yes.
58. Do you make commitments?
Yes.
59. Can you dance?
Kind of?
60. Would you ever have plastic surgery?
Yes.
61. What do you wear to bed?
Right now, satin PJ's but normally pajama pants and a t-shirt or tank top.
62. Have you ever done anything illegal?
Yes.
63. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes.
64. What kind of shoes are you wearing?
Slippers. They are pink with a pink ribbon with black spots.
65. What is your hair color?
Blonde-ish/Brown-ish?
66. Future child's name?
Jacob, Anastasia, Riley, Aubrey... I'm not sure but those are a few I like...
67. Do you snore?
I know I wheeze...?
68. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Already been to the U.K. and Hawaii, I'd love to go to New Zealand, Russia, France, Australia and the Caribbean.
69. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Sometimes.
70. If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
Pay off my student loans, buy a new car, buy my own place, donate some to charity, send my parents on a cruise.
71. Gold or silver?
White-gold. Or Platinum.
72. If you could be with someone for the rest of your life, who would it be?
No idea.
73. City, beach or country?
Beach!
74. What was the last thing you touched?
Keyboard.
75. Where did you eat out last?
Jugo Juice.
76. When's the last time you cried?
Sunday?
77. Do you read blogs?
Some. Kevin's and Matthew's and sometimes Laurel's, Anne's, Bean's, etc. (When they write in them!)
78. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
I think jeans and a hoodie may be considered doing that anyway...
79. Ever been involved with the police?
No.
80. Do you have pets?
Yes... Between my parents, my brother and I, we have 5 dogs and 3 cats.
The Year in Review...
Sarah and Caitlyn both posted this so I kind of stole it from them... Happy New Year Everyone! :)
1. where did you begin 2007?
At Amber's house after (pretty much) no one showed up at mine! :P
2. what was your status by valentine's day
Single and the happiest I have been about it in a while!
3. were you in school (anytime this year)?
Yes.
4. did you have to go to the hospital?
Yes.
5. did you have any encounters with the police?
Speeding ticket(s).
6. where did you go on vacation?
I went to B.C. with Kim for a week, and spent two weeks in the U.K. visiting Shannon and such...
7. did you purchase an item that was over $500?
I'm sure I bought a bunch of stuff that totaled over that but one thing in particular...? Maybe my Blackberry or my phone bill in general!
8. did you know anybody who got married?
Yes.
9. did you know anybody who passed away?
No.
10. did you move anywhere?
Yes, we moved to a new place in Lethbridge.
11. what sporting events did you attend?
Nothing major...
12. what concerts did you go to?
None...
13. describe your birthday:
We were in B.C. and my mom made a big dinner and some of my cousins came over and my dad acted like a dork. I had a birthday party with my friends a couple of weeks later and we went out for dinner, did a scavenger hunt and came back to my house for drinks.
14. what's the one thing you thought you would not do, but did in 2007?
Dated someone I probably shouldn't have...
15. what has been your favorite moment(s)?
My Birthday. Amber's Birthday, the trip to the U.K., managing the Sunridge store...
16. funniest moment(s)?
No idea.
17. any new additions to your family?
We now have 3 more dogs...
18. what was your best month?
July, aside from my dad being a dork.
19. who has been your best drinking buddy?
Kim.
20. made new friends?
Yes.
21. favorite Night out?
Driving to Banff with John, Kurtis, Nathan and Jodi. Or going to Coyote's with Brian, Almeda, Amber, John and John.
22. overall, how would you rate this year?
Out of 10, I'd give it a 6. I made some mistakes, but had fun overall. There are things I'd like to go back and change, mainly because I feel as though I have regrets for the first time ever... (I tend to not regret things.)
23. other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
Work, School, Amber's, my car...
24. change your hairstyle?
A couple of times... like 5 or 6...?
25. have any car accidents?
No.
26. Most memorable moment?
Driving to B.C. and Washington and back with Kim this summer...
27. do you have a new year's resolution?
Yes. (I'd rather not share it, comment/message me if you are THAT curious!)
28. do anything embarrassing?
Oh, pretty much every day. I trip UP stairs sometimes...
29. buy anything new from eBay?
No.
30. get married or divorced?
No.
31. get arrested?
No.
32. be honest - did you watch american idol?
I haven't in a few years.
33. did you get sick this year?
Yes, pneumonia, strep a bunch of times, my asthma has acted up and I've had laryngitis a few times as well. It has NOT been a good year health-wise.
34. been snowboarding?
No, don't know how.
35. are you happy to see 2007 go?
Yes and no. At times it felt like it dragged, other times it felt like it flew...
36. been naughty or nice?
Mostly nice. A little naughty. :P
1. where did you begin 2007?
At Amber's house after (pretty much) no one showed up at mine! :P
2. what was your status by valentine's day
Single and the happiest I have been about it in a while!
3. were you in school (anytime this year)?
Yes.
4. did you have to go to the hospital?
Yes.
5. did you have any encounters with the police?
Speeding ticket(s).
6. where did you go on vacation?
I went to B.C. with Kim for a week, and spent two weeks in the U.K. visiting Shannon and such...
7. did you purchase an item that was over $500?
I'm sure I bought a bunch of stuff that totaled over that but one thing in particular...? Maybe my Blackberry or my phone bill in general!
8. did you know anybody who got married?
Yes.
9. did you know anybody who passed away?
No.
10. did you move anywhere?
Yes, we moved to a new place in Lethbridge.
11. what sporting events did you attend?
Nothing major...
12. what concerts did you go to?
None...
13. describe your birthday:
We were in B.C. and my mom made a big dinner and some of my cousins came over and my dad acted like a dork. I had a birthday party with my friends a couple of weeks later and we went out for dinner, did a scavenger hunt and came back to my house for drinks.
14. what's the one thing you thought you would not do, but did in 2007?
Dated someone I probably shouldn't have...
15. what has been your favorite moment(s)?
My Birthday. Amber's Birthday, the trip to the U.K., managing the Sunridge store...
16. funniest moment(s)?
No idea.
17. any new additions to your family?
We now have 3 more dogs...
18. what was your best month?
July, aside from my dad being a dork.
19. who has been your best drinking buddy?
Kim.
20. made new friends?
Yes.
21. favorite Night out?
Driving to Banff with John, Kurtis, Nathan and Jodi. Or going to Coyote's with Brian, Almeda, Amber, John and John.
22. overall, how would you rate this year?
Out of 10, I'd give it a 6. I made some mistakes, but had fun overall. There are things I'd like to go back and change, mainly because I feel as though I have regrets for the first time ever... (I tend to not regret things.)
23. other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
Work, School, Amber's, my car...
24. change your hairstyle?
A couple of times... like 5 or 6...?
25. have any car accidents?
No.
26. Most memorable moment?
Driving to B.C. and Washington and back with Kim this summer...
27. do you have a new year's resolution?
Yes. (I'd rather not share it, comment/message me if you are THAT curious!)
28. do anything embarrassing?
Oh, pretty much every day. I trip UP stairs sometimes...
29. buy anything new from eBay?
No.
30. get married or divorced?
No.
31. get arrested?
No.
32. be honest - did you watch american idol?
I haven't in a few years.
33. did you get sick this year?
Yes, pneumonia, strep a bunch of times, my asthma has acted up and I've had laryngitis a few times as well. It has NOT been a good year health-wise.
34. been snowboarding?
No, don't know how.
35. are you happy to see 2007 go?
Yes and no. At times it felt like it dragged, other times it felt like it flew...
36. been naughty or nice?
Mostly nice. A little naughty. :P
Sunday, December 23, 2007
"I'll be home for Christmas..."
So, my mom was saying that for anyone who isn't going "home" or who doesn't have anywhere to do the Christmas thing, they would be more than welcome to join us. We aren't doing anything odd or whatever but I know the current plan is to go see a movie tomorrow sometime and going to the candlelight service at church in the evening. On Christmas Day I make brunch, my mom makes dinner and if anyone wants to join us at any point during the day, even just to drop in for company, let me know! We love having people around and my mom and I agree that having somewhere to be on Christmas is a good thing! :)
Our family is kind of spread thin nowadays and we love having people to feed/take care of! ;)
Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone! I hope the next couple of days are a blessing in your lives and that you feel the peace of the season! :)
Our family is kind of spread thin nowadays and we love having people to feed/take care of! ;)
Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone! I hope the next couple of days are a blessing in your lives and that you feel the peace of the season! :)
Monday, December 17, 2007
All I want for Christmas...???
The only reason I am writing this is that I have had a bunch of people ask what I want for Christmas.
The answer is pretty easy... I don't have a "wish list" because I have a very hard time making one. Therefore, gift card/certificates for anywhere that sells CD's and such is good. I love places like Lush and The Body Shop and anything from the Cadillac-Fairview Mall's is fine (that's Chinook and Market specifically), or from Chapters/Indigo or Starbucks.
Otherwise, I collect crystal animals (so money towards one is fine as they tend to be expensive) or the Willow Tree Angels, I know I have the Angel of Happiness, Angel of Summer, Angel of Hugs and one more that I can't think of the name of right now.
I love vanilla, cocoa butter and coconut as scents. I don't like anything that smells too strong, specifically not flower scents or anything too musky. I'm ok with fruit smells and I prefer things like strawberry, peach and grapefruit to anything else.
And, for anyone who isn't aware, my favourite colour is pink. I also love black... And anything that sparkles is cool.
I do have lists of stuff that I would like to buy but cannot afford or justify buying for myself... One is on Amazon.ca (books, CD's, DVD's) and one on Amazon.com (there are 2, one is music stuff, the other is DVD's) and on Chapters.Indigo.ca (books, etc.) and another that I'm not going to list, I made many of them for birthday stuff so I updated them so they aren't things I have already received...
I hope this helps whoever needs it...
Merry Christmas all! :)
The answer is pretty easy... I don't have a "wish list" because I have a very hard time making one. Therefore, gift card/certificates for anywhere that sells CD's and such is good. I love places like Lush and The Body Shop and anything from the Cadillac-Fairview Mall's is fine (that's Chinook and Market specifically), or from Chapters/Indigo or Starbucks.
Otherwise, I collect crystal animals (so money towards one is fine as they tend to be expensive) or the Willow Tree Angels, I know I have the Angel of Happiness, Angel of Summer, Angel of Hugs and one more that I can't think of the name of right now.
I love vanilla, cocoa butter and coconut as scents. I don't like anything that smells too strong, specifically not flower scents or anything too musky. I'm ok with fruit smells and I prefer things like strawberry, peach and grapefruit to anything else.
And, for anyone who isn't aware, my favourite colour is pink. I also love black... And anything that sparkles is cool.
I do have lists of stuff that I would like to buy but cannot afford or justify buying for myself... One is on Amazon.ca (books, CD's, DVD's) and one on Amazon.com (there are 2, one is music stuff, the other is DVD's) and on Chapters.Indigo.ca (books, etc.) and another that I'm not going to list, I made many of them for birthday stuff so I updated them so they aren't things I have already received...
I hope this helps whoever needs it...
Merry Christmas all! :)
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Random Lyrics (Posted originally on other blog...)
So, I have spent a lot of time with my friends recently discussing life around us and what's going on in the world. Some of what is happening is upsetting and other things are really... random. Not funny per se but oddly amusing. I'd like to start with the sad things...
So, in the past few weeks there have been many random shootings throughout the U.S. I don't know anyone who has been directly influenced by these but I do have friends who have been indirectly effected. The shooting in the mall in Omaha reminded a lot of people of things like what happened at Columbine High and in Taber. Most directly, the shootings in the Colorado YWAM base and the church in the same city affected many of my friends who live on a YWAM base or are serving with YWAM throughout the world. To think that innocent people died for no purpose is sad... As is the case in situations such as these. I heard this song on the radio last week sometime, and while I had heard it before, I didn't think much of it until last week. The lyrics hit me pretty hard...
"Nobody Died" by The Wilkinsons
Back when I went to school
Kids smoked and swore and broke some rules
But I mean, didn't everybody, almost everybody
Fake I.D. bought a quart of beer
Had the devil's rock n' roll ringin' in our ears
And people said, "these kids have got a problem here"
I'm not saying that they weren't right
I've cried and tried to understand
What I'm seeing on the news tonight
I'll admit we were young and foolish
Totally irresponsible
But nobody died
We all made it home
Well, we'd fuss and fight and make mistakes
But life went on
There were broken hearts and dreams
And wounded pride
But nobody died
Kids got bullied, picked on and teased
But somehow we found our place in the scheme of things
And time heals everything, almost everything
When I look back on the things I've done
Some good, some bad, and I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone
Yeah, I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone
How we'd get from there to here
From Shakespeare and Math and Science
To shots ringin' in our ears
And what's it gonna take to get us back
Get us back to where
Nobody died
We all made it home
Well, we'd fuss and fight and make mistakes
But life went on
There were broken hearts and dreams
And wounded pride
But nobody died
Nobody died
Nobody died
It reminds me of a few things... When I was in H.S. there was a "Machete incident" across the street from the school which ended up on school property. Therefore, the school was involved. Throughout my years there, that was the most "major" thing that happened. A year or so after I left, someone got shot in one of the stairwells. It makes me wonder what changed in the years between... A video I love and a song which has meaning, much like the previous is this one...
"If Everyone Cared" by Nickelback
From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And I'm singing
Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died
This next one will seem really random by comparison to the others. But it is one of my favourite Christmas songs and it makes me think a lot about world events and people who have needs that we, as a Western society don't always acknowledge. It's not about any minority in the sense that most people would expect, more about someone given a chance to think about one of the true meanings of Christmas and why people give gifts and the meaning of sharing with others...
"The Christmas Shoes" by Newsong
It was almost Christmas time, there I stood in another line
Tryin' to buy that last gift or two, not really in the Christmas mood
Standing right in front of me was a little boy waiting anxiously
Pacing 'round like little boys do
And in his hands he held a pair of shoes
His clothes were worn and old, he was dirty from head to toe
And when it came his time to pay
I couldn't believe what I heard him say
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
He counted pennies for what seemed like years
Then the cashier said, "Son, there's not enough here"
He searched his pockets frantically
Then he turned and he looked at me
He said Mama made Christmas good at our house Though most years she just did without
Tell me Sir, what am I going to do,
Somehow I've got to buy her these Christmas shoes
So I laid the money down, I just had to help him out
I'll never forget the look on his face when he said
Mama's gonna look so great
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
I knew I'd caught a glimpse of heaven's love
As he thanked me and ran out
I knew that God had sent that little boy
To remind me just what Christmas is all about.
I will admit, I'm a gift-giver... I don't receive well. I think it is mainly because I have some issues with self-confidence and self-esteem and I don't necessarily think that I am "worth" getting a present for. I buy gifts for friends; for birthdays, anniversaries, Christmas and just randomly throughout the year. When I receive something from someone, I am thankful, I'm not saying I'm not but whether it's for an occasion or not, I tend to think "why me?" and while that seems kind of stupid right now, it's something have felt for years. I love the above song for that reason.
I have some friends who are going through interesting situations in relationships and the next song is one that I love for the upbeat sound with an excellent message. It's a well-written way of telling someone that things are frustrating you and you are moving on...
"Potential Break-Up Song" by Aly & AJ
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
It took too long
It took too long
It took too long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that
Except for the fact it was my Birthday
My stupid Birthday
I played along
I played along
I played along
Rolled right off my back
But obviously my armour was cracked
What kind of a boyfriend would forget that?
Who would forget that?
The type of guy who doesn't see,
What he has until she leaves
Don't let me go!
Cause without me you know you're lost,
Wise up now or pay the cost
Soon you will know, oh!
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' with me
You're not winning
'Til you're winning, winnin' me
You're not getting
'Til you're getting, gettin' to me
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' for me
This is the Potential Breakup Song
Our Album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me
We got along
We got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back
You can send it in a box
I don't care
Just drop it off
I won't be home!
Cause without me you know you're lost
Minus you I'm better off
Soon you will know, oh!
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' with me
You're not winning
'Til you're winning, winnin nin nin nin nin
You're not getting
'Til you're getting, gettin' to me
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' for me
You can try
You can try
You know I know it'd be a lie
Without me you're gonna cry
So you better think clearly, clearly
Before you nearly, nearly mess up the situation
That you're gonna miss dearly, dearly
Come on!
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' with me
You're not winning
'Til you're winning, winnin nin nin nin nin
You're not getting
'Til you're getting, gettin' to me
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' for me
This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please, tell me
This is the potential make up song
Please just admit you're wrong
Which will it be
Which will it be
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la
Ok, so last... I have been a music major for the past few years and I have gone through and watched my friends go through a lot of ups and downs. Random: One movie I found I identified with was "Raise Your Voice" and yes, the movie is kind of lame. But that is EXACTLY how I felt when I first came to the U of L. As though I wasn't good enough to be there and that I didn't fit in anywhere. But over time, I realized that things could only get better. A song that I love because it gives people a chance to think about what they would do with their future is this one... (It makes me want to sing along but mainly for reasons of the stereotypical aspect of what people "think" the life of a rock star is like... I will admit, I'm not as focused on the material aspects as some people may be, it's more the situations and "glamour" that is anticipated...)
"Rockstar" by Nickelback
I'm through with standin' in line
To clubs I'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
And I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
Quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)
I want a brand new house
On an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
For ten plus me
(Yeah, so tell what you need)
I'll need a.. a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet
--(Been there done that)--
I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And well...
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
(I'll have the quesadilla, ha ha)
I think I'm gonna dress my ass
With the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
Blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars and
Live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
Today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
Drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
I'm gonna sing those songs
That offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
From a Pez dispenser
Get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip synch 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong
Well we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and
Today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
Drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
(I will admit, some of the videos aren't the best quality but they give you an idea of what the actual video is like...)
So, in the past few weeks there have been many random shootings throughout the U.S. I don't know anyone who has been directly influenced by these but I do have friends who have been indirectly effected. The shooting in the mall in Omaha reminded a lot of people of things like what happened at Columbine High and in Taber. Most directly, the shootings in the Colorado YWAM base and the church in the same city affected many of my friends who live on a YWAM base or are serving with YWAM throughout the world. To think that innocent people died for no purpose is sad... As is the case in situations such as these. I heard this song on the radio last week sometime, and while I had heard it before, I didn't think much of it until last week. The lyrics hit me pretty hard...
"Nobody Died" by The Wilkinsons
Back when I went to school
Kids smoked and swore and broke some rules
But I mean, didn't everybody, almost everybody
Fake I.D. bought a quart of beer
Had the devil's rock n' roll ringin' in our ears
And people said, "these kids have got a problem here"
I'm not saying that they weren't right
I've cried and tried to understand
What I'm seeing on the news tonight
I'll admit we were young and foolish
Totally irresponsible
But nobody died
We all made it home
Well, we'd fuss and fight and make mistakes
But life went on
There were broken hearts and dreams
And wounded pride
But nobody died
Kids got bullied, picked on and teased
But somehow we found our place in the scheme of things
And time heals everything, almost everything
When I look back on the things I've done
Some good, some bad, and I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone
Yeah, I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone
How we'd get from there to here
From Shakespeare and Math and Science
To shots ringin' in our ears
And what's it gonna take to get us back
Get us back to where
Nobody died
We all made it home
Well, we'd fuss and fight and make mistakes
But life went on
There were broken hearts and dreams
And wounded pride
But nobody died
Nobody died
Nobody died
It reminds me of a few things... When I was in H.S. there was a "Machete incident" across the street from the school which ended up on school property. Therefore, the school was involved. Throughout my years there, that was the most "major" thing that happened. A year or so after I left, someone got shot in one of the stairwells. It makes me wonder what changed in the years between... A video I love and a song which has meaning, much like the previous is this one...
"If Everyone Cared" by Nickelback
From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And I'm singing
Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died
This next one will seem really random by comparison to the others. But it is one of my favourite Christmas songs and it makes me think a lot about world events and people who have needs that we, as a Western society don't always acknowledge. It's not about any minority in the sense that most people would expect, more about someone given a chance to think about one of the true meanings of Christmas and why people give gifts and the meaning of sharing with others...
"The Christmas Shoes" by Newsong
It was almost Christmas time, there I stood in another line
Tryin' to buy that last gift or two, not really in the Christmas mood
Standing right in front of me was a little boy waiting anxiously
Pacing 'round like little boys do
And in his hands he held a pair of shoes
His clothes were worn and old, he was dirty from head to toe
And when it came his time to pay
I couldn't believe what I heard him say
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
He counted pennies for what seemed like years
Then the cashier said, "Son, there's not enough here"
He searched his pockets frantically
Then he turned and he looked at me
He said Mama made Christmas good at our house Though most years she just did without
Tell me Sir, what am I going to do,
Somehow I've got to buy her these Christmas shoes
So I laid the money down, I just had to help him out
I'll never forget the look on his face when he said
Mama's gonna look so great
Sir, I want to buy these shoes for my Mama, please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry, sir, Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes would make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful if Mama meets Jesus tonight
I knew I'd caught a glimpse of heaven's love
As he thanked me and ran out
I knew that God had sent that little boy
To remind me just what Christmas is all about.
I will admit, I'm a gift-giver... I don't receive well. I think it is mainly because I have some issues with self-confidence and self-esteem and I don't necessarily think that I am "worth" getting a present for. I buy gifts for friends; for birthdays, anniversaries, Christmas and just randomly throughout the year. When I receive something from someone, I am thankful, I'm not saying I'm not but whether it's for an occasion or not, I tend to think "why me?" and while that seems kind of stupid right now, it's something have felt for years. I love the above song for that reason.
I have some friends who are going through interesting situations in relationships and the next song is one that I love for the upbeat sound with an excellent message. It's a well-written way of telling someone that things are frustrating you and you are moving on...
"Potential Break-Up Song" by Aly & AJ
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
It took too long
It took too long
It took too long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that
Except for the fact it was my Birthday
My stupid Birthday
I played along
I played along
I played along
Rolled right off my back
But obviously my armour was cracked
What kind of a boyfriend would forget that?
Who would forget that?
The type of guy who doesn't see,
What he has until she leaves
Don't let me go!
Cause without me you know you're lost,
Wise up now or pay the cost
Soon you will know, oh!
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' with me
You're not winning
'Til you're winning, winnin' me
You're not getting
'Til you're getting, gettin' to me
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' for me
This is the Potential Breakup Song
Our Album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me
We got along
We got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back
You can send it in a box
I don't care
Just drop it off
I won't be home!
Cause without me you know you're lost
Minus you I'm better off
Soon you will know, oh!
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' with me
You're not winning
'Til you're winning, winnin nin nin nin nin
You're not getting
'Til you're getting, gettin' to me
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' for me
You can try
You can try
You know I know it'd be a lie
Without me you're gonna cry
So you better think clearly, clearly
Before you nearly, nearly mess up the situation
That you're gonna miss dearly, dearly
Come on!
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' with me
You're not winning
'Til you're winning, winnin nin nin nin nin
You're not getting
'Til you're getting, gettin' to me
You're not living
'Til you're living, livin' for me
This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please, tell me
This is the potential make up song
Please just admit you're wrong
Which will it be
Which will it be
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la
Ok, so last... I have been a music major for the past few years and I have gone through and watched my friends go through a lot of ups and downs. Random: One movie I found I identified with was "Raise Your Voice" and yes, the movie is kind of lame. But that is EXACTLY how I felt when I first came to the U of L. As though I wasn't good enough to be there and that I didn't fit in anywhere. But over time, I realized that things could only get better. A song that I love because it gives people a chance to think about what they would do with their future is this one... (It makes me want to sing along but mainly for reasons of the stereotypical aspect of what people "think" the life of a rock star is like... I will admit, I'm not as focused on the material aspects as some people may be, it's more the situations and "glamour" that is anticipated...)
"Rockstar" by Nickelback
I'm through with standin' in line
To clubs I'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
And I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
Quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)
I want a brand new house
On an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
For ten plus me
(Yeah, so tell what you need)
I'll need a.. a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet
--(Been there done that)--
I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And well...
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
(I'll have the quesadilla, ha ha)
I think I'm gonna dress my ass
With the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
Blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars and
Live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
Today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
Drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
I'm gonna sing those songs
That offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
From a Pez dispenser
Get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip synch 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong
Well we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and
Today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
Drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
(I will admit, some of the videos aren't the best quality but they give you an idea of what the actual video is like...)
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Judgement...
I'm finding it amusing... I don't judge others based on their life choices, what they say/do, how they act towards me or others, what people post pictures or notes of and many other things that I could sit back, look at them or whatever they were doing and think, "WHAT are they thinking???" But I don't. It's frustrating to realize that while I am not a judgemental person (unless pushed) that others around me seem to be constantly judging me.
I was at a birthday party a couple of weeks ago with a friend. As we drove away afterwards, I commented to her, "I'm probably being talked about." I said it very matter-of-factly... I knew that some of the people that were there weren't going to have anything nice to say about me. Honestly, in the past it would have bothered me but I have come to realize that those people who choose to talk about me behind my back are those who aren't worth my time or energy. It bothers me to think that some of the people I consider "friends" do that to me and I don't do or say anything to stop them. But, because of the way I have been raised, I am more likely to be a doormat than to stand up for myself. Or, that's how it USED to be.
So, sometimes I feel as though I am invisible. I have to admit, I prefer it. When it’s a “you’re part of this group and you fit in so we know you’re here even if it doesn’t seem like it” it’s fine. When it’s “you’re not important enough to acknowledge” that it bothers me. When I was growing up, I was “one of the guys” and I liked that role because it didn’t matter what I wore, who was around, or whatever, because in the long run, I was one of the group and that’s what mattered. I miss times like that sometimes… I have an awesome group of friends for the most part. I have some friends that tend to only talk to me or hang out with me when it is beneficial to them. They treat me as though I am ok to spend time with when others are busy, they need a ride, or something done then they call me.
I'm done. I hate being judged and OF COURSE I care what my friends think. But, instead of people talking to me, they slander me in a public forum and expect I'll never hear about it. As for the doormat aspect of my personality, I'm done with it. If you don't like something I have said or done over time, I would rather know about it. But for the time being, I'm going to stand up for myself and screw anyone who doesn't like it.
Oh, and for those of you who felt it was okay to slander me in some way, know that I won't soon forget but I won't do anything to retaliate because it's not who I am. As for other comments made on things such as Facebook and Nexopia, I LOVE that I post many of the same things as my friends do (because I answered a few and then put them on mine so others can do the same) and I'm not "acting my age." I'm sorry I'm not 40 but when you hang out with a group of people that is 16-26, sometimes you post "juvenile" things and people are welcome to comment about them, APPROPRIATELY. If someone isn't sure of what that means, maybe you should think about what would bother you if it was a comment on your page.
Oh... For the record, for anyone who is going to continue sending me stupid forward's after I have asked you to stop, I will not be receiving any messages from you at all because I am blocking your e-mail address.
And if you missed the THING September 8, you can read my talk if you want, just let me know. I'm told it gives a lot of insight into who I am and what I stand for.
I was at a birthday party a couple of weeks ago with a friend. As we drove away afterwards, I commented to her, "I'm probably being talked about." I said it very matter-of-factly... I knew that some of the people that were there weren't going to have anything nice to say about me. Honestly, in the past it would have bothered me but I have come to realize that those people who choose to talk about me behind my back are those who aren't worth my time or energy. It bothers me to think that some of the people I consider "friends" do that to me and I don't do or say anything to stop them. But, because of the way I have been raised, I am more likely to be a doormat than to stand up for myself. Or, that's how it USED to be.
So, sometimes I feel as though I am invisible. I have to admit, I prefer it. When it’s a “you’re part of this group and you fit in so we know you’re here even if it doesn’t seem like it” it’s fine. When it’s “you’re not important enough to acknowledge” that it bothers me. When I was growing up, I was “one of the guys” and I liked that role because it didn’t matter what I wore, who was around, or whatever, because in the long run, I was one of the group and that’s what mattered. I miss times like that sometimes… I have an awesome group of friends for the most part. I have some friends that tend to only talk to me or hang out with me when it is beneficial to them. They treat me as though I am ok to spend time with when others are busy, they need a ride, or something done then they call me.
I'm done. I hate being judged and OF COURSE I care what my friends think. But, instead of people talking to me, they slander me in a public forum and expect I'll never hear about it. As for the doormat aspect of my personality, I'm done with it. If you don't like something I have said or done over time, I would rather know about it. But for the time being, I'm going to stand up for myself and screw anyone who doesn't like it.
Oh, and for those of you who felt it was okay to slander me in some way, know that I won't soon forget but I won't do anything to retaliate because it's not who I am. As for other comments made on things such as Facebook and Nexopia, I LOVE that I post many of the same things as my friends do (because I answered a few and then put them on mine so others can do the same) and I'm not "acting my age." I'm sorry I'm not 40 but when you hang out with a group of people that is 16-26, sometimes you post "juvenile" things and people are welcome to comment about them, APPROPRIATELY. If someone isn't sure of what that means, maybe you should think about what would bother you if it was a comment on your page.
Oh... For the record, for anyone who is going to continue sending me stupid forward's after I have asked you to stop, I will not be receiving any messages from you at all because I am blocking your e-mail address.
And if you missed the THING September 8, you can read my talk if you want, just let me know. I'm told it gives a lot of insight into who I am and what I stand for.
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Relationships, Work and Complications...
I'm not sure what I think about relationships. A relationship is generally defined (and no, I'm not using a dictionary, this is a "life experience definition") as a genuine warmth or affection that derives from a commonality, or more than one, that two people share. I have always considered some of those "commonalities" as being things like trust, respect, honesty, and so forth. To me, these are BIG things. But lately, I have been letting some of those things slide. Mainly because I had decided that while I am really busy, my friends and so forth much be as well and therefore probably don't have as much time to do things, talk, etc. I think my error in thinking was that they didn't have the time, as because I was busy, I wasn't putting as much effort into our friendships as I normally would. I came to a few realizations though... I have been a doormat over time for a lot of people and have been letting them get away with a lot of stuff that I wouldn't normally. I'd love to say it's just because I've been so busy but honestly, it's more because I didn't want to rock the boat. I have been lied to, my character has been assassinated, I have gotten into stupid little arguments that had no purpose and just made us feel bad overall and have been treated as though my opinion doesn't matter. I am not saying I'm blameless. I've been so stressed that I haven't wanted to tell anyone and I have basically been bottling it up. When that happens, I eventually blow up, normally in an emotional way which isn't necessarily healthy. I have come to realize that while becoming silent instead of yelling is better, emotions are a good way to express what feelings are happening but not if they make you thin-skinned and feeling vulnerable. My problem is that when I feel vulnerable, I am sarcastic or I lash out unintentionally to keep people from getting too close. It's something that I am getting better at but then again, the silent treatment really isn't any better! Also, if I am going to put myself out there to get to know someone better, they need to be willing to put almost equal effort into it because it's not fair if I am pouring all I am and have into it and they do nada...
Now, I have been working insane hours and keeping myself busy with many work-related things and while I really love my job some days, in the past few, I have been feeling really tired and drained. I alternately love and hate being at Sunridge, I miss and then don't the people at the other store, I want things to be perfect because I'm a perfectionist and I tend to work myself hard because I don't want the rest of the staff to think I am slacking in any way! One of the girls at work commented today that I am constantly in motion... I didn't really realize it but when I am at work, I am. And after stepping down funny yesterday and pulling something in my ankle and foot, I wasn't moving as fast as I normally would today. By the end of the day today, my foot was really sore and I wanted to sit but wouldn't allow myself to. It's just the whole "not showing weakness at work" thing... It's stupid and in my head but I didn't want to slack. Plus, I couldn't ask the girls to work if I was chilling in the back room. :P
I love my staff... We are all fairly sarcastic but we get along really well and sometimes it's funny to see who is going to have a "blonde moment" or who is going to whine about something. Today, we were having a "squeaking" problem and ended up talking like "Valley Girls" but it got better as they day progressed. lol, it's going to be weird when we all split up to go back to school in the fall. Only 2 of the girls are staying on full-time (plus me and the new Manager as I'm staying as the Assistant) but the other girls have school and won't be able to work other than some evenings and weekends pretty much. It will definitely be a different vibe than it has been this summer but I'm looking forward to it. I am beginning to like change (within reason) and I like the people I am working with!
This semester I had decided to go back to the U of L and finish off my minor(s). I am only two or so courses away from my English minor and 3 away from a Psych minor, should I decide to do that as well. I am looking forward to it but also dreading it! The only way to explain is that I am finished my degree so it's not as much "GET IT DONE!!!" pressure but it's also a lot of "get good marks!" pressure and I'm trying not to overthink things now because if I do, by 3 months from now, I'm going to be burning out from working and going to school and I don't want that happening. For now, I am taking 4 courses but one is a music class that I didn't take during my undergrad and I may decide not to take it. I only need 3 courses to be full-time and I don't want to kill myself. I almost did that last semester between being sick and finishing my degree. In the fall I will see about applying to get into Education somewhere, otherwise, I will worry about that towards the beginning of the Winter/Spring semester. One of the other reasons I am dreading going back right now is I lived in the same place for 3 years, uprooted and moved somewhere else last year and now we're moving again. But while we have found an apartment (my bro and I), our parents are talking about buying a house in Lethbridge. Mainly so the dog can move in as well and that way we have some space. Plus, then we aren't paying someone else's mortgage... We did that this past year basically and it was a pain! But because it's a little over a week away and we're not 100% sure what's going on, it's not very fun right now!
Anyway, I need sleep, I'm working at 9am...
Now, I have been working insane hours and keeping myself busy with many work-related things and while I really love my job some days, in the past few, I have been feeling really tired and drained. I alternately love and hate being at Sunridge, I miss and then don't the people at the other store, I want things to be perfect because I'm a perfectionist and I tend to work myself hard because I don't want the rest of the staff to think I am slacking in any way! One of the girls at work commented today that I am constantly in motion... I didn't really realize it but when I am at work, I am. And after stepping down funny yesterday and pulling something in my ankle and foot, I wasn't moving as fast as I normally would today. By the end of the day today, my foot was really sore and I wanted to sit but wouldn't allow myself to. It's just the whole "not showing weakness at work" thing... It's stupid and in my head but I didn't want to slack. Plus, I couldn't ask the girls to work if I was chilling in the back room. :P
I love my staff... We are all fairly sarcastic but we get along really well and sometimes it's funny to see who is going to have a "blonde moment" or who is going to whine about something. Today, we were having a "squeaking" problem and ended up talking like "Valley Girls" but it got better as they day progressed. lol, it's going to be weird when we all split up to go back to school in the fall. Only 2 of the girls are staying on full-time (plus me and the new Manager as I'm staying as the Assistant) but the other girls have school and won't be able to work other than some evenings and weekends pretty much. It will definitely be a different vibe than it has been this summer but I'm looking forward to it. I am beginning to like change (within reason) and I like the people I am working with!
This semester I had decided to go back to the U of L and finish off my minor(s). I am only two or so courses away from my English minor and 3 away from a Psych minor, should I decide to do that as well. I am looking forward to it but also dreading it! The only way to explain is that I am finished my degree so it's not as much "GET IT DONE!!!" pressure but it's also a lot of "get good marks!" pressure and I'm trying not to overthink things now because if I do, by 3 months from now, I'm going to be burning out from working and going to school and I don't want that happening. For now, I am taking 4 courses but one is a music class that I didn't take during my undergrad and I may decide not to take it. I only need 3 courses to be full-time and I don't want to kill myself. I almost did that last semester between being sick and finishing my degree. In the fall I will see about applying to get into Education somewhere, otherwise, I will worry about that towards the beginning of the Winter/Spring semester. One of the other reasons I am dreading going back right now is I lived in the same place for 3 years, uprooted and moved somewhere else last year and now we're moving again. But while we have found an apartment (my bro and I), our parents are talking about buying a house in Lethbridge. Mainly so the dog can move in as well and that way we have some space. Plus, then we aren't paying someone else's mortgage... We did that this past year basically and it was a pain! But because it's a little over a week away and we're not 100% sure what's going on, it's not very fun right now!
Anyway, I need sleep, I'm working at 9am...
Monday, August 20, 2007
Reflection...
It's interesting to look back over time and see how life has changed. Or, how life has changed who you have become. 5 years ago, 10 years ago, 15 years ago... What was important then doesn't seem as important now. Who was important then isn't necessarily as important now.
It seems odd to contemplate that when I was 10, I depended on my parents for almost everything. At 15, I thought the sun rose and set on my friends and family. Without them, it was as though I was nothing. At 20, I did not feel as though my life was as defined by them but yet, I let them define who I was, what I would become and would do with my life. I allowed them to tell me what they thought of me, took it to heart and considered their opinions the be all and end all of opinions in the world. I tried not to care what others thought and while that was not always easy, I did my best. At 15, that was practically impossible. At 20, it was impossible.
I defined who I was based on how others perceived me. Now, I do it as well, just in a different way. I used to use things such as baggy clothes or a ponytail or a big grin on my face or other such techniques to hide what I looked like or how I was feeling. Now, I let my hair do what it is going to, I wear clothes that actually fit, I am honest about how I am feeling and I trust people more. I don't necessarily let their opinions define "me" anymore. It's a hard habit to break though... I think when it comes right down to it, I have stopped caring how people judge me. Mainly because I have come to the conclusion that while I might not always be happy with how I look, what I am wearing, what my hair is doing (or not doing), etc. when it comes down to it, I am an okay person.
I have had people (my friends) telling me recently what a wonderful person I am and how much they love me. For anyone who knows me, they may know that it is awesome to hear but incredibly hard for me to believe. I heard for YEARS the complete opposite of that so while I WANT to believe what they are saying, I am more likely to blow it off or say something sarcastic than to take it to heart. I think that is something that I need to be careful of though. I DO care about people. I DO love my friends and family. I'm glad that they care about me. But when it comes down to it, my head disagrees with what they are saying while my heart is saying, "yes! What they are saying is TRUE!" It's hard to break a bad habit. I used to bite my fingernails, trust me, it's tough. I now only bite them when I am stressed or anxious about something... I think that sarcasm is my way of being defensive. It's as though if I make a joke, no one else can... Or if I make a joke FIRST then I have beat someone else to the punchline. Then whatever they were about to say or whatever they say next won't hurt as much. I'm not really sure why I do that, it just seems to be my self-defence mechanism kicking into effect.
I'm a big believer in making sure that everyone is happy and everything is ok. Why then, can't I be happy? Or ok? With life in general, I have been lately... But when things go well, I doubt it and then I'm not sure how to handle what is coming next. I am trying to be as optimistic as I have been in the past. Sometimes it is hard not to be a "glass half-empty" kind of person and I'd rather my glass is half-full anyway! If anyone has any ideas how to do this, tell me how...
(I am reminded of a Baz Luhrmann song... This song always makes me smile...)
Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it
The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.
Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded.
But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future.
Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts.
Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy.
Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind.
The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults.
If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.
Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.
Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either.
Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body.
Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it.
It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance - even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
"Brother and sister together we'll make it through,
Someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
I know that you're hurting but I've been waiting there for you
And I'll be there just helping you out
Whenever I can"
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,
but with a precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths:
Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old.
And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
"brother and sister together we'll make it through,
someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
I know that you're hurting but I've been waiting there for you
and I'll be there just helping you out
whenever I can
everybody's free
everybody's free
to feel good"
So, when it comes down to it, I am okay with where my life is at for the most point. But it is tough sometimes... I have people coming at me from all sides telling me what I should and shouldn't be doing and it drives me crazy! I may not always be completely happy with what I have accomplished in my life but that is mainly due to the comparisons that other people make between their lives and mine. There is a BIG difference between lives that divided at 18 and someone who has worked since then and someone who has gone to school. It bothers me that some people don't value education as much as I do and while I try to see their point, I find it very hard as I tend to be made to feel as though because I went to school and took a while deciding what I wanted to do with my education that I am less of a person because I don't have a husband and children yet.
I say YET. I do plan to have a family someday. In the future... Not necessarily next week, next month or even next year but sometime in the future. I love kids. I want to have a family. Just because I have different priorities than some of the people I was (or am) friends with, I don't think that makes me a BAD person, I think it makes me an individual.
I believe that everyone is entitled to their opinions and that everyone is allowed to live their lives how THEY want to, without anyone dictating anything to them. I know that I am, quite frankly, sick of people bossing others around and saying things about them when they are not there to defend themselves or know anything about what it being said... Sometimes, life isn't fair and I'm not saying it is supposed to be but what it comes down to is that every person should have an opportunity to live their life the way they want to and make the decisions they are going to, whether things work out for the best or not.
I have to admit, I have had times when I have been the "good girl" and the "bad girl" and it has hit me lately that ultimately, I think I am a bad girl with good girl morals. Which means that I like to have fun and do things that may shock some people but when it comes down to it, I am not going to go against my basic morals and beliefs. I know that may seem odd to others but it is something I have been contemplating for a long time...
It seems odd to contemplate that when I was 10, I depended on my parents for almost everything. At 15, I thought the sun rose and set on my friends and family. Without them, it was as though I was nothing. At 20, I did not feel as though my life was as defined by them but yet, I let them define who I was, what I would become and would do with my life. I allowed them to tell me what they thought of me, took it to heart and considered their opinions the be all and end all of opinions in the world. I tried not to care what others thought and while that was not always easy, I did my best. At 15, that was practically impossible. At 20, it was impossible.
I defined who I was based on how others perceived me. Now, I do it as well, just in a different way. I used to use things such as baggy clothes or a ponytail or a big grin on my face or other such techniques to hide what I looked like or how I was feeling. Now, I let my hair do what it is going to, I wear clothes that actually fit, I am honest about how I am feeling and I trust people more. I don't necessarily let their opinions define "me" anymore. It's a hard habit to break though... I think when it comes right down to it, I have stopped caring how people judge me. Mainly because I have come to the conclusion that while I might not always be happy with how I look, what I am wearing, what my hair is doing (or not doing), etc. when it comes down to it, I am an okay person.
I have had people (my friends) telling me recently what a wonderful person I am and how much they love me. For anyone who knows me, they may know that it is awesome to hear but incredibly hard for me to believe. I heard for YEARS the complete opposite of that so while I WANT to believe what they are saying, I am more likely to blow it off or say something sarcastic than to take it to heart. I think that is something that I need to be careful of though. I DO care about people. I DO love my friends and family. I'm glad that they care about me. But when it comes down to it, my head disagrees with what they are saying while my heart is saying, "yes! What they are saying is TRUE!" It's hard to break a bad habit. I used to bite my fingernails, trust me, it's tough. I now only bite them when I am stressed or anxious about something... I think that sarcasm is my way of being defensive. It's as though if I make a joke, no one else can... Or if I make a joke FIRST then I have beat someone else to the punchline. Then whatever they were about to say or whatever they say next won't hurt as much. I'm not really sure why I do that, it just seems to be my self-defence mechanism kicking into effect.
I'm a big believer in making sure that everyone is happy and everything is ok. Why then, can't I be happy? Or ok? With life in general, I have been lately... But when things go well, I doubt it and then I'm not sure how to handle what is coming next. I am trying to be as optimistic as I have been in the past. Sometimes it is hard not to be a "glass half-empty" kind of person and I'd rather my glass is half-full anyway! If anyone has any ideas how to do this, tell me how...
(I am reminded of a Baz Luhrmann song... This song always makes me smile...)
Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it
The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.
Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded.
But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future.
Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts.
Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy.
Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind.
The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults.
If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.
Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.
Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either.
Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body.
Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it.
It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance - even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
"Brother and sister together we'll make it through,
Someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
I know that you're hurting but I've been waiting there for you
And I'll be there just helping you out
Whenever I can"
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,
but with a precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths:
Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old.
And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
"brother and sister together we'll make it through,
someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
I know that you're hurting but I've been waiting there for you
and I'll be there just helping you out
whenever I can
everybody's free
everybody's free
to feel good"
So, when it comes down to it, I am okay with where my life is at for the most point. But it is tough sometimes... I have people coming at me from all sides telling me what I should and shouldn't be doing and it drives me crazy! I may not always be completely happy with what I have accomplished in my life but that is mainly due to the comparisons that other people make between their lives and mine. There is a BIG difference between lives that divided at 18 and someone who has worked since then and someone who has gone to school. It bothers me that some people don't value education as much as I do and while I try to see their point, I find it very hard as I tend to be made to feel as though because I went to school and took a while deciding what I wanted to do with my education that I am less of a person because I don't have a husband and children yet.
I say YET. I do plan to have a family someday. In the future... Not necessarily next week, next month or even next year but sometime in the future. I love kids. I want to have a family. Just because I have different priorities than some of the people I was (or am) friends with, I don't think that makes me a BAD person, I think it makes me an individual.
I believe that everyone is entitled to their opinions and that everyone is allowed to live their lives how THEY want to, without anyone dictating anything to them. I know that I am, quite frankly, sick of people bossing others around and saying things about them when they are not there to defend themselves or know anything about what it being said... Sometimes, life isn't fair and I'm not saying it is supposed to be but what it comes down to is that every person should have an opportunity to live their life the way they want to and make the decisions they are going to, whether things work out for the best or not.
I have to admit, I have had times when I have been the "good girl" and the "bad girl" and it has hit me lately that ultimately, I think I am a bad girl with good girl morals. Which means that I like to have fun and do things that may shock some people but when it comes down to it, I am not going to go against my basic morals and beliefs. I know that may seem odd to others but it is something I have been contemplating for a long time...
Friday, June 22, 2007
The UK...
So, I just got back from the UK.
I have to admit, the trip wasn't exactly what I was expecting it would be. I pictured getting the chance to hop on the train and go to Scotland and check out a few of the smaller cities and towns around Leeds.
As it was, I did spend a day in Manchester with Janet, Shannon and I went to London for 3 days and I got to see Sue and Trev and meet their son Daniel who is just younger than me (23, I believe?) and we saw two broadway shows while we were there.
I LOVED Fame! I was stoked to see it and was glad we had the opportunity to go. :) I also really, really enjoyed Wicked! I wasn't so sure I was going to but I liked it WAY better than I had anticipated! Otherwise, I did a bunch of shopping, got to ride all over London and Leeds by bus and taxi and got to meet a bunch of Shannon's friends.
The night I got there, her friend Melanie was having a house party which we went to. I had fun but I felt a little out of place as they were all "Master's" students and I didn't really know anyone. I ended up chatting with a couple of Shannon's friends (Carly and Ben) and we danced and sang along with a bunch of older American music. :) Things like "RESPECT" by Aretha and others... It was pretty fun. I saw but did not get a chance to meet her friend John that night but we ended up going out for drinks another night with Rati, Dima, Ken and John and I had the chance to sit and chat with all of them. We also went for dinner with Carly another night which was fun. We had Italian (which I LOVE!).
I also had the opportunity to try Thai food for the first time and we went to a Thai-fusion restaurant as well. We also had sushi (I'd had sushi before but not like this place!) and we went to the Hard Rock Cafe (the first one to open) in London and I went to the one in Leeds as well. I love places like that because of their history and there are SO many stories! :) We didn't get a chance to tour the vault in London but I will go back someday! ;)
I loved seeing the sights in London and I want to go back to see Baden-Powell house sometime. The shoppes were amazing but the prices were exorbitant and I don't know how people actually LIVE in London! It was insane! We did go to Harrod's though, which was fun! I also went to Hamley's and bought some random souvenir's there for people. A 6 story toy store, how could I resist! ;)
I enjoyed seeing where Shannon is living and going to school. There is a great little Moroccan place by her flat that was fun! We went there a couple of times for breakfast or lunch. I enjoyed exploring on my own as well! The castles and cathedrals were gorgeous!
We had the time to see a few movies while I was there and they were nice breaks... I also found THE BEST drink ever at Starbucks in the UK! And for the record, McDonald's tastes different... It was cool though, at the movies you could buy little cups of ice cream and they had the little plastic spoon in the lid and everything... It was fun! :) Ben and Jerry's is everywhere there!
Shannon and I had our ups and downs and I think that if I were to do it again, I would probably not spend the entire time staying in one place with one person. I would also rather travel WITH someone as the flights there and back (with the connections) were kind of insane! I'm hoping that we are still friends now that this is all over...
Edit: I DO have pictures from this trip! I just haven't posted them anywhere yet due to being insanely busy with work! I promise I will get them up soon!
I have to admit, the trip wasn't exactly what I was expecting it would be. I pictured getting the chance to hop on the train and go to Scotland and check out a few of the smaller cities and towns around Leeds.
As it was, I did spend a day in Manchester with Janet, Shannon and I went to London for 3 days and I got to see Sue and Trev and meet their son Daniel who is just younger than me (23, I believe?) and we saw two broadway shows while we were there.
I LOVED Fame! I was stoked to see it and was glad we had the opportunity to go. :) I also really, really enjoyed Wicked! I wasn't so sure I was going to but I liked it WAY better than I had anticipated! Otherwise, I did a bunch of shopping, got to ride all over London and Leeds by bus and taxi and got to meet a bunch of Shannon's friends.
The night I got there, her friend Melanie was having a house party which we went to. I had fun but I felt a little out of place as they were all "Master's" students and I didn't really know anyone. I ended up chatting with a couple of Shannon's friends (Carly and Ben) and we danced and sang along with a bunch of older American music. :) Things like "RESPECT" by Aretha and others... It was pretty fun. I saw but did not get a chance to meet her friend John that night but we ended up going out for drinks another night with Rati, Dima, Ken and John and I had the chance to sit and chat with all of them. We also went for dinner with Carly another night which was fun. We had Italian (which I LOVE!).
I also had the opportunity to try Thai food for the first time and we went to a Thai-fusion restaurant as well. We also had sushi (I'd had sushi before but not like this place!) and we went to the Hard Rock Cafe (the first one to open) in London and I went to the one in Leeds as well. I love places like that because of their history and there are SO many stories! :) We didn't get a chance to tour the vault in London but I will go back someday! ;)
I loved seeing the sights in London and I want to go back to see Baden-Powell house sometime. The shoppes were amazing but the prices were exorbitant and I don't know how people actually LIVE in London! It was insane! We did go to Harrod's though, which was fun! I also went to Hamley's and bought some random souvenir's there for people. A 6 story toy store, how could I resist! ;)
I enjoyed seeing where Shannon is living and going to school. There is a great little Moroccan place by her flat that was fun! We went there a couple of times for breakfast or lunch. I enjoyed exploring on my own as well! The castles and cathedrals were gorgeous!
We had the time to see a few movies while I was there and they were nice breaks... I also found THE BEST drink ever at Starbucks in the UK! And for the record, McDonald's tastes different... It was cool though, at the movies you could buy little cups of ice cream and they had the little plastic spoon in the lid and everything... It was fun! :) Ben and Jerry's is everywhere there!
Shannon and I had our ups and downs and I think that if I were to do it again, I would probably not spend the entire time staying in one place with one person. I would also rather travel WITH someone as the flights there and back (with the connections) were kind of insane! I'm hoping that we are still friends now that this is all over...
Edit: I DO have pictures from this trip! I just haven't posted them anywhere yet due to being insanely busy with work! I promise I will get them up soon!
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Facebook...
Friends, classmates, random people who creep my page... (which I have put a stop to recently...) I have now joined and have become wrapped up in the latest technological advancement when it comes to getting in touch with people from your past. It is weird and awesome at the same time how many people I have "met again" through this website! There are some I went to Elementary with, some I did Brownies or Guides with, some I skated with, some I went to Jr or Sr High with, people I know through choir, from camp and a bunch of people I know through TEC or church. It's funny because some people have joined because I have invited them! It is also funny to see what a small world it truly is as on each of your friend's pages, it shows your "mutual friends" so the connections are sometimes weird! That "six degrees of separation" is SO true that sometimes it is a little scary! *lol* I was talking to someone I went to JH with and she and I have since gone for coffee and it was as though basically no time has passed which was awesome! I'm not sure how often we will get to hang out but for sure I have someone new to talk to on MSN and she knows I'm there if and when she needs me! Many of my friends (and even my mom!) have it and we share stories, quizzes, pictures and other such things which is tons of fun! I am finding lately that I use it more than I use Nex and MySpace combined, for a variety of reasons. I like that it e-mails me when there is something new that directly relates to me. Also, that everything that is new and important with the people I am friends with is right there when I log in so I don't have to surf around to see new things or changes that have been made, I can check them out if I chooe to but it is nice to know what is new/different either way! I'm sure there are people on there that I have yet to find or add but my theory is that they will find/add me if it comes down to it! :)
Anyway, life is going ok right now... I've been keeping busy with school and stuff and while I am feeling a bit overwhelmed currently, I am looking forward to the end of the semester! I got my info for GRADUATION this week!!! I also got my grad photos back from the photographer! If people want them, they need to let me know before my mom sends them off to the rel's in B.C. :) I'm so stoked to be done and I have applied for next year so I just need to be patient and wait! For those people who are praying-types, please pray! :) (Thanks tons! ;D) So, less than two weeks left, exams will be over and I will be FREE for the summer!!! YAAAAY!!!
On another good note, I have a specialist appointment for my knee on the 17th to find out of anything can be done about it. I am both anticipating and dreading this appointment! Oy vay! :S Oh well, nothing really bad can come of it other than knee surgery which at this point may be more of a blessing than a curse!
On that note, I'm off to bed, I need to be up early to bake cinnamon rolls before Holly goes back to Lethbridge! Night! ;)
Anyway, life is going ok right now... I've been keeping busy with school and stuff and while I am feeling a bit overwhelmed currently, I am looking forward to the end of the semester! I got my info for GRADUATION this week!!! I also got my grad photos back from the photographer! If people want them, they need to let me know before my mom sends them off to the rel's in B.C. :) I'm so stoked to be done and I have applied for next year so I just need to be patient and wait! For those people who are praying-types, please pray! :) (Thanks tons! ;D) So, less than two weeks left, exams will be over and I will be FREE for the summer!!! YAAAAY!!!
On another good note, I have a specialist appointment for my knee on the 17th to find out of anything can be done about it. I am both anticipating and dreading this appointment! Oy vay! :S Oh well, nothing really bad can come of it other than knee surgery which at this point may be more of a blessing than a curse!
On that note, I'm off to bed, I need to be up early to bake cinnamon rolls before Holly goes back to Lethbridge! Night! ;)
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