Grrrr.... :(

Today wasn't the greatest. In fact, I am sure I have had both better and worse but today royally sucked.

I got up and did the morning thing and was ready to go to class. I then discussed this evening with my brother. We each had commitments we needed to be at, on opposite sides of the city, at various times. I asked if he could find a ride to his commitment as it started in the middle of mine and I would pick him up when he was done and he blew up and me and said he just wouldn't go and stormed off. I was pretty upset and I pointed out to him that it is my car and he yelled at me. I gathered all of my stuff to write my paper and my laptop case and I left for school. I called Laura because I was pretty much having a panic attack and she calmed me down... I got to class just as the prof started the lecture and he ended class really early... I went to talk to him because my paper isn't coming together as well as I had hoped and I am feeling very frantic about it at this point. It is due Thursday and I have about half of it written and still have a ton of point form notes and a ton of analyis left to do... He said to get in touch with him tomorrow and let him know how things are. At this point I want to put my head down on my desk and cry I am so frustrated with it...

After class I went to BP's for lunch to stay away from my house. I worked on the Theory project that is due next week for a few minutes and reorganized some of my notes/ideas for my paper. I wrote about 1.5 pages while I was there. I called the Arts and Science Advising office while I was there and found out the drop-in was pretty much right after lunch so I headed back over to the U.

I got there are 1:40 and signed myself in and waited. I saw this guy that is a friend of a friend who likes to pick on me but I ignored him, it was easier. The advisor called me in and I explained my circumstances and showed him my doctor's note and he told me that while my concerns are valid, the doctor's note isn't enough documentation for what I was needing. I need "specific dates and what is wrong" which a doctor will not put on a note due to doctor-patient confidentiality. He also said "the concerns aren't completely specified and it doesn't say how it directly relates to you." I asked if he had seen my letter of accomodation for this semester and he said that it is only guidelines for exams and in class assignments. I pointed out that it says in that letter what my stengths and weaknesses are and that should answer "what's wrong and how it relates to me" but he wouldn't listen and he got very patronizing. So I started in disability services, was sent to counselling services, saw my family doctor, was sent to advising and now I have to GO BACK to one of the first two!!! I am NOT impressed! I called both disability services and counselling today to try to book an appointment... I now have an appointment on Friday and when I made the appointment, the lady I am meeting with asked who I was speaking to in Advising and she didn't sound too impressed with him either.... It was at the point that I left his office in tears because I was so frustrated that I felt like "that's it, I'm done."

I went home afterwards and spent a few minutes checking my e-mail and such and then worked on my essay for a while and then tried to lay down because I had a headache and the phone kept ringing. I helped John put his binder for a project that he needed to hand in today together and then when he got home from dropping it off he drove me to orchestra.

Orchestra was good. I love the pieces we are playing (when I am not counting 32 bars rest...) and the annoying guy who sits next to me wasn't sitting there for part of it because we were working with the choir and he sings in the choir as well and has chosen to sing the pieces instead of playing them. (Good riddance!) I left before we were done (about 7:45)because I had let John have the car and Laura was picking me up and she had a client at 8. (She works for homecare.)

Since I got home I have had leftovers for dinner (from lunch with Shaun on Saturday...), worked on my essay (I feel like I have hit a brick wall) and watched (meaning it was on and I listened to it) some T.V.

Now, I am exhausted, it has been an incredibly long, emotionally tiring day and I am going to get some sleep (if I can fall asleep)... :( Night...